Fun Lover

2009-09-27T23:52:00.001+08:00

http://somethingdifferentthistime.blogspot.com/

2009-09-15T23:35:00.003+08:00

Ten miles from town and I just broke down
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
I'm out here alone just tryin' to get home
To tell you I was wrong but you already know
Believe me I won't stop at nothin'
To see you so I've started runnin'

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you.

Last time we talked, the night that I walked
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind
I must've been high to say you and I
Weren't meant to be and just wasting my time
Oh, why did I ever doubt you?
You know I woule die here without you.

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you.

You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind
Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind
So I'm runnin' back to tell you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you God knows what I'd do

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you.

Life After You-Daughtry

Nice song by daughtry. just got the new album. and i dont regret getting it xD
its damn nice uh. next song for me to leearn on guitar xD

so.. update on prelims, i guess? hahaha. nothing much uh. dunno what to comment about it also. lol. gonna have amaths tmr ._. hahah.
but its good uh. cos it also means that we're one step closer to the end of olvls = freedom :D
wanna work at HMV. can listen to music all day xD

oh yeah one stupid thing abt prelims and olvls. they keep giving us 4 hour breaks in between papers =,= dumbest thing ever. waste time only.

k lah. dunno what else to blog about also.. just that.. hope prelims will be over as soon as possible? haha. alrights. till next time then.

~All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you~

once in a long while.

2009-08-19T22:04:00.002+08:00

im actually back to update. wow.

so as promised, mother tongue results

I GOT B4!!! hahaha. and im satisfied with it.

sad thing is, people dont see eye-to-eye with me. its like, my dad and a very few other ppl were the only person who said "well done" or "nice one la". and wad did everyone else say? "retake la" "aiyoh why like that? ( from mrs chen xD) . no, its not hurtful to me at all. like i said, im satisfied with a B4, as i expected myself to get B3. and mother tongue is sth ive never really scored in. except for primary schools la.

its quite a pity actually. that everyone cldnt just be a little more supportive of each other's choices/wants. mine's a perfect example. instead of saying sth like "haha. u dun wan retake ah? nice one.", everyone's saying "retake la retake la" which is everyone's preconceived idea/opinion on what a typical B4 person shud do.

ah well. that's that.
moving on.. ppl cried. hahah. dunno why on earth do they have such high expectations of themselves. just be satisfied with what u have la. like me! xD jkjk. but yeah.

on the contrary, i got 18/25 for english assignment. wow. hahaha.

k that was awfully random and no link...

hmm. i dunno what else to blog about la. hmm. dnt's gonna be over by friday at 7am. glad this will be over. and i think i'll be getting my next B already. and amaths? xD its just gonna make my L1R5/L1B4 worse. ah well. but its gonna feel good with all this load off my back anw. its about less than 80 days to the end of olvl.. im so excited xD

k la. that shall be all for now..
until the next time, ( which is i dunno when )
byes.

p.s. this post revolves around school cos a post was requested. but there was nth else to blog abt anw ._.

~ive spent every second i had,
counting the minutes and im going mad,
im redefining the words "i am sad",
nothing ive done ever hurt quite this bad~

2009-08-07T00:05:00.002+08:00

im letting go of the past.
im kinda getting used to losing things anyway.
ok fine. maybe there are some things i havent actually completely lost yet.
but nevermind. probably no one gets what i mean here. except a few.

its like, every year during these few months, some things would happen ( or sometimes nothing ) that makes me have a "breakthru" in my life and makes me change my thinking and ideals on my life. yeah. especially during the previous few months. lalala~

gosh its already august. lol. 79 days to olvls.
wont be updating anymore till olvls are over. which is, once again, something i really cant wait for.

mother tongue olevel results next tuesday. should be fun.

hmm. dunno wad else to say here... once again, the time has come when i have a million things on my mind, but i just dont know what to say out.. ah well.

guess its better just not to say anything.

well then,
goodbye blog.

tho i might come back here to update on certain stuff. ahaha.

life goes on
with you by my side
i play my acoustic guitar,
hoping you would hear these songs i play

DNT causes eyebags

2009-07-23T02:26:00.003+08:00

yeah. been doing dnt since like 11 just now.. did quite alot.. including exploded drawing.. ( no, the drawing didnt explode... ) lol. tmr is the last day of work.. before submission on friday... so i left development of shapes and technology and part of UCA and the words for ideation ._. shud be able to complete on time.

anw nothing much today.. now chinese olvels are over.. left 6 subjs.. or 5. seeing as i i wanna drop amaths but somehow mdm halilah doesnt get the hint ( or mayb shes just not letting me ) and my dad doesnt want me to drop it. i mean, why bother studying something u have no interest in? ah well.

3 and a half hour of maths tmr. sounds fun eh. mayb i'll jus skip mdm halilah's small group coaching. which is supposed to end at six. i dont care if she call my parents uh. i just dont wanna take her subject.

hmm. then today was also racial harmony day.. did some paintings..
zzzz. hmm. cant wait for amaths tmr. HOPEFULLY i can drop.
shall just end off with pics then.

my painting! my art sucks. lol.

we played scrabble before the mother tongue olvl. pro or not. haha

kk time to sleep.

hahah sry sapri xD

nights then.

~you finally find, you and i, collide~

2009-07-19T00:31:00.002+08:00

once again, my guitar obsession is back xD can play for a few hours a day. lol. another thing is, going out on friday to meet with my "future band"! hahah. thanks to jasper for the random convo ._. i think it'll be fun. lol.

yeah in good moods nowadays. cos turns out the dnt deadline has been postponed to this coming friday.. so yeah. taking a complete break from dnt for now. gotta complete artifact by tues or wednesday. suddenly i got a scary feeling that i wont be able to complete my dnt ._. ah well. i dont mind taking only 5 subjects xD its all i need.

ah well. staying up this late often has been giving me eyebags. but i dont wanna sleep! sleeping seems so boring. hahah. but nvm shall go to sleep soon uh.

fireworks are so nice! saw them from my house just now... k i srsly dunno what to blog about already ._. suddenly the days in between now and friday seem so boring -,-zzz

k lah. shall go off. byebye

~and i feel wonderful, because i see the love light in your eyes~

i guess life's unfair

2009-07-15T23:38:00.004+08:00

that thing's made out of plastercine (sp?) lol. currently obsessed with the song on my blog. cant stop listening to it. been hearing it again and again and again xD.

and what am i doing here? i have four prelim papers to do for amaths, but i dont care about amaths anymore. i just wanna drop amaths. if mdm halilah dont let me, i just stop doing work uh. i would be so so so relieved and less worried for olevels without amaths. its something i dont need. goodbye, amaths.

dnt? i have two days left for fabrication. a sense of anxiety engulfs my heart, but i am confident i can complete it by friday. if really no choice, theres still monday.. and also have to chiong folio on weekend. planning not to sleep on saturday and maybe also sunday just to finish it up. i mean, if i wanna drop amaths, i need to have dnt to compensate for it. tho im actually using only 5 subjs as im going to poly..

and i cant wait to get into poly, out of tk. tk is such a sucky place. hahahah said this countless of times already. so shant say much anymore.

k lah. shall go off to sleep soon. byes.

alamak. dont always fall asleep leh xD

random

2009-07-14T19:48:00.003+08:00

yoz ppl. im sick.
was sick since ytd. ytd still went school. didnt go this morning cos was feeling real bad when i woke up at about 5am ( o.0???)
but was much better after going back to sleep and waking up at about noon.. lol.

so went for geog test and dnt..
6 5 days left for dnt.. can i make it? can luh. if it means not sleeping for three days straight. sounds like a good idea for me to finish up everything including p board. scaryyy.

just took my meds. hope i dont fall asleep on my com. haha.
kenneth and erina went home ytd cos of high temp o.o lol. kenneth quarantined one week. oh dear. get well soon ppl!

k lah. to end off this post, here are some funny stuffs..

lol. and a quote from joyce's blog

LOL. SS taught me that Iraq-Kuwait war, Sinhalese-Tamil conflict,
& singapore's case study were all caused by BRITAIN.
Quite true huh? They seemed to be the cause of all negative things -.-
Oh ya. Thanks to them, we have to go through this hell called O Levels.
:D

and lastly, some final quotes

 Despite the high cost of living, it remains very popular.
 Born free... taxed to death.
 The more people I meet, the more I like my dog.
 Some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them.
 A bartender is just a pharmacist with a limited inventory.
 There's too much blood in my alcohol system.
 I used to have a handle on life, but it broke.
 Don't take life too seriously, you won't get out alive.
 I need someone really bad... are you really bad?
 I don't care, I don't have to.
 Beauty is in the eye of the beer holder.
 I'm not a complete idiot, some parts are missing.
 Out of my mind. Back in five minutes.
 I want to die in my sleep like my grandfather ... Not screaming and yelling like the passengers in his car.
 God must love stupid people, he made so many.
 I said "no" to drugs, but they just wouldn't listen.
 The gene pool could use a little chlorine.
 When there's a will, I want to be in it!
 Don't drink and drive, you might hit a bump and spill your drink.
 Always remember you're unique, just like everyone else.
 Be nice to your kids. They'll choose your nursing home.
 3 kinds of people: those who can count & those who can't.

~~i let go,~~ wont let go,
cos there's just no one, no one like you

o level mother tongue oral!

2009-07-10T00:13:00.005+08:00

heh. kenneth and yisong and the whole of the normal chinese population all chionging last minute practice. including me ah xD

overall i think it went ok la. passage wasnt too hard and topic for convo was quite easy... was damn nervous for it at first. but after that everyone left the hall feeling happy uh. happy that it was over and done with. now left our listening compre and then its our mother tongue olvl results in august.

found this in my geog txtbook -,- wonder who. must be someone i lent the book to. hmmmm. i have a few suspects xP

haiz. deprived ppl.

k lah. i dunno what to update about also. kinda sleepy so shall sleep soon.
byebye

You're everything I know that makes me believe i'm not alone

I really wanna quit school

2009-07-08T05:18:00.002+08:00

damn tiring luh. leading a schooling life isnt something i want nor need. like ive said many times before, id happily quit school and find a job out there. and no, i dont mind if the salary is low, and yes, i can find a job. i know a few places.

anw, woke up at 4 plus.. was supposed to wake at 230 and do dnt and stuff... zzz sian lor. havent done geog nor amaths neither. dropping amaths is already a great consideration. well, i shant waste too much time on com then. i have a new "resolution". if i can complete my dnt, i will drop amaths. but i only have 12 days to do dnt. and i dont have time. hm. guess i'll have to lose one more day, making it 11 days left. i'll have to quickly do re-ideation today.

and searching the words "quit school" on google, i find many articles on it, saying how people either drop school to find a job or to go do their "profession". well, im in neither of those two categories. lol. but still, these articles make it sound like a bad thing. is it, now?

well, for fun's sake, here are two excerpts.

1. You can learn on your own. You did not have to go to school to learn how to talk and walk so why do you need it to learn anything else?
2. The only reason they want you in school is because with each kid that drops out they lose money. I say well tough shit, they can go find another job.
3. It destroys your creativity by making everything structured.
4. Destroys your sense of self
5. It's a lot of unnecessary stress(If you are becoming overly anxious, depressed, self abusive and abusive towards others, suicidal or experience homicidal thoughts because of school. YOU NEED TO LEAVE! And get some help.)

If I could live my life all over again, I would quit school at age 16 and get a real education at home through research and working at jobs that build my self-esteem and self-confidence.

k lah. shall end here and get a little little bit of sleep before going school.. i have a great lack of sleep these days. zzzzzzzzzz.

11 days. will i make it?

yoz

2009-07-07T03:00:00.005+08:00

just woke up not too long ago.

yeah. slept at about 10 plus? was too sleepy and mind was kinda not working. lol. so just woke up.. eating and slacking awhile a bit before doing any work..

<--40 minutes later-->

ok ive been slacking too much xD
time to do work! byebye

just thinking about it makes me so pissed and fucking annoyed sometimes. i really gotta hand it to the both of you. you're the only ones who can irritate me THAT much. maybe you dont understand that tho i may not have "grown", im alr different from who i was last time. i dont really care if you like it or not, but this is MY life and I choose what i want and how it's going to be. please, for our/my/your/anyone/everyone's sake, leave me the hell alone.

Cause you caught me off guard,

yay

2009-07-06T03:34:00.001+08:00

finally completed with quite a bit of folio.
still havent come up with anything about the idea but, its a start =)
ah well. now to get some sleep then.
hope i dont oversleep tmr xD

pffft.

2009-07-05T20:52:00.002+08:00

dnt. wad a bother.
to do or not to do?

i dont know leh. i keep delaying and procrastinating.
should i do?

pffft. =\
im tired. i wanna sleep.
but then tmr also going out. so no time.
WHAT TO DO?!?!??!

yeah. i shall go sleep
then wake me when september ends. in time to go study for olevels ._.
k lame.

i dunno what to do!

PFFFT

When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

2009-07-04T23:18:00.003+08:00

lol. random line from 21guns.

ah well. have not been updating as everytime i come home i would be feeling rather tired. zzzz. saddest thing was that i went to see ms wendy tan for dnt, showed her my product, and apparently it was a complete failure. not enough workmanship and stuff. so, sat down there, squeezing my brain juice out trying to think of a "selling point" of my product.

thats the worst part. its like, ms tan was also thinking la ( unless shes purposely not helping -,- ). so, if ms tan cant think of anything, how can u expect me, a much less experienced and less smarter person to come up with something? haiz. im supposed to come up with something by tues.

and thats not all. even if i DO come up with something do-able, i have only about 2 or 3 weeks to complete fabrication, and do up the remaining parts of the folio ( that can only be done after product is formed ) AND presentation boards. sounds fun eh. i should probably start thinking of dropping

and when i think of dropping, my "inner self" gives me a random sense of determination, telling me that i can do it if i give it effort. but like the line, "When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul" my "brain" tells me its not possible to complete everything and i should just go and focus on improving my amaths. i just dont know.

ah well. lucky nothing else thats bad happened. suddenly thinking of geog makes me happy. cos i did PART of the hmwk and mindmap. left coasts to study.. :) haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. what to do for dnt? amath's not that hopeful as well.

k lah. guess i'll end here. and go to sleep not-so-soon. hahaha.
oh yea
PEOPLE! GO PLAY INSANIQUARIUM ON POPCAP.COM!!! ITS DAMN FUN! IM ADDICTED XD

but i shall play guitar now. byebye

p.s cheer up pinoy!

~and when i close my eyes, its you i see~

Random

2009-07-03T01:16:00.002+08:00

Like these strings I play, our lives have much been intertwined that way

2009-07-02T22:50:00.003+08:00

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone

RIP, ~~old~~ man. your songs rock.
my dad used to show me moonwalks when i was young and i kept asking him how to do it. but he always refused xP
song goes out to............................................... dunno. heh.

lalala~

2009-06-30T23:09:00.002+08:00

the time has come... for me.. to PLAY GUITAR
hahaha. random post la. byes then

oh dear. what now?
waiting's still the best option

tired!

2009-06-30T05:47:00.002+08:00

yeah.
no idea why also.
after coming back from school ytd, i showered, ate, then went straight to bed. and slept all the way till now. lolol.

first day of school.. was first day of school. sian as usual. everyone was like wishing for a few more cases of swine flu so that the school would close. but nvr uh.. so sad.

singaporean students have sad lives =(

They say school is for learning? Well, being bored is hardly any way to learn anything! No wonder hardly anyone remembers what they were forced to memorize at school. School isn't about learning, it's about training people to be obedient to those with authority over them.

im kinda energetic now.. but i think the same thing might happen again. lol. ah well.
once again, better get my butt to school. theres still physics and ss to be done. not complaining, but i'll be damn glad when this is over.~~so i can sleep for 1234567890 hrs xD~~

(before) The First Day Of School

2009-06-29T05:28:00.005+08:00

woke twice this morning ._.
once at 2 plus. and 2nd time at 4.50. wanted to go back to sleep since it was still early. but due to fear that i wld oversleep -,- i just decided to get up uh. and here i am.

comments on my feelings? hahah. not really feeling sian. im already mentally prepared. "its gonna be sian. get used to it". haha. hmwk not done and all.. but. so what?

oh. just found this site. kinda cool

WARNING! THIS SITE MAY BE A VERY BAD INFLUENCE AND MAY CAUSE UR OLEVEL GRADES TO DROP. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. PUT A HAND OVER THE SCREEN IF U DONT WANNA SEE BUT WANNA REMAIN ON MY BLOG.

~~oh and i support this site alot :D tho i havent really checked it out yet~~

Site Purpose:
This is a support site for students who can't stand being forced to go to school. We are not telling you to drop out, rebel or do anything in particular. What you do is your decision and yours alone, we can just provide support and information for whatever choice you may make. What works for one person won't necessarily work for everyone. The point is: the choice is yours to make. And if, for whatever reason, other people refuse to let you make that choice, you will always find someone here willing to listen to you.

It's okay to hate school:

There is nothing wrong with you.
If you hate school, parents and teachers may be quick to label you as 'troubled' or 'defiant' or diagnose you with a bunch of disorders. Nothing could be further from the truth.
There is nothing wrong with hating school, there is nothing wrong with hating being forced to go someplace you don't want to and being "taught" things that don't interest you in ways that would kill you if boredom were lethal.
You're not worthless if you don't get good grades, and you're not mentally ill if the mere thought of school scares you.
In fact, you're probably perfectly sane.
They say school is for learning? Well, being bored is hardly any way to learn anything! No wonder hardly anyone remembers what they were forced to memorize at school. School isn't about learning, it's about training people to be obedient to those with authority over them.
Don't trust school to 'educate' you - only you can be trusted with that!

This psychologist has a message for kids who hate school:
I, as an adult and a psychologist, want to say to any children out there who hate school: you are not alone. Most people hate it too, but usually they don't feel entitled to say so, and many can't bear to think about it so they hardly even know how they feel. You are not mad – you don't have a Deep Psychological Problem (though you might develop one if you stay in school against your will!); and you are not bad for wanting to live your life the way you choose, doing what you think right – that is what everyone should be doing. You are not the problem: coercion is the problem. Being forced to go to school is the problem. (read the rest of this article)

k lah. shall get ready and haul my ass off to school soon.
byes

2009-06-28T19:42:00.002+08:00

watched transformers!
kinda lay to blog.
so shall just post the lyrics to one of the songs 21 Guns by Green Day, which is part of my blog and part of the soundtrack

Do you know what's worth fighting for
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

2009-06-24T02:09:00.001+08:00

so smexy

going to sleep now. haha

2009-06-22T23:53:00.004+08:00

yo! hahaha. im upside down.
went for dnt today. i feel like i accomplished alot today! hahaha. will be able to finish my porduct soon enough i hope. didnt do any part of folio today. taking the ~~day~~ night off. hahaha shall continue folio some other time. hahaha. oh yeah. think i prob not enough time to do presentation board. dnt is so messed up! haha. ah well. here are the oher pics of today

as in, when me, hongyou boonyee and syafiqah went to the playground. weird combo i noe. lol.

retarded girl. damn deprived xD

the swing's gonna break xD

whoo~ i can go so high xD

retard xP

cheers =)

hahah. weird way of sitting.

k lah. guess thats all.
oh yeah found two very cools thing

1) a website that can download youtube videos as mp3s!! so cool! means all ur live performances, interviews, covers or what nots!! so cool =D

2) this awesome song. enjoy! =)

[Original]
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me anda I walk alone

[Oasis(Band)]
Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you

[Original]
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

[Oasis(Band)]
By now you should've somehow realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now

[Chorus 1:Greenday(Band)]
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

[Travis]
Every day I wake up and it's Sunday
Whatever's in my head won't go away
The radio is playing all the usual
And what's a Wonderwall anyway *

[Oasis(Band)]
Back beat, the word is on the street that the fire in your heart is
out
I'm sure you've heard it all before but you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now...

[Original]
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

[Oasis(Band)]
Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you

[Original]
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

[Oasis(Band)]
Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow realized what you gotta do

[Chorus 2: Oasis(Band)]
And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
But I don't know how

[Hook]
[Original]
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams

[Oasis(Band)]
Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you

[Original]
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams

[Oasis(Band)]
By now you should've somehow realized what you gotta do

[Original]
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

[Chorus 1:Greenday (Oasis)]
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me (maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me)
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating (maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me)
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me (maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me saves me)
'Til then I walk alone

[Eminem]**[Aerosmith]**REMIX
Sing with me; sing for the year (Sing it!)
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
Sing with me, just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away...

study/dnt/slack

2009-06-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

went to esplanade library again ytd to study. lol.

slept like a pig today. woke only at 7PM xDDDD. ah well. thats because i had nothing better to do and.my studying motivation/drive/desire meter is currently at 0. no mood to study or do hmwk. dun feel like going dnt tmr. maybe its cos im sneezing now. ahahah
here are the pics anw..

the empty library. we went in when it was just opened. lol.

so empty

after that went to clarke quay to slack awhile

lol.

emo.. not. hahah my hair look like i cut bangs like that

weird pose. i was trying to take a pic of the merlion behind me

and its a success! lol.

IM SO DARN BORED.

Zzzzzzzz

maybe i shall go play xbox or wii. ahahah

one week left to the end of holidays. u think it will be extended cos of H1N1? i hope so.

tired/sleepy

2009-06-20T00:38:00.001+08:00

yup. went for dnt. but was kinda sleepy so didnt really have the mood to do much.
so yeah. ended up slacking the whole day.

nothing much to post about.
so lets end off with just one pic

ignore my dance pose and retarded expression xD

jasmine temporarily joined our fu lu shou gang today xD

walked around alot

~~so jasmine lost alot of weight~~

thats all then.

nice song from atreyu

2009-06-18T17:55:00.000+08:00

its a little loud. but nevermind. haha

Bang!
Explosions in my head that just won’t quit
A train has crashed into the wall around my heart and left the old me dead
Obliterated
Stop!
My breathing in the night when you’re not their
The silence ringing through my ears
And all I want to do is hear your voice
But you're not there

Drawn together
Painter’s brush stroke
Sleight of hand
We won’t go up in smoke
Fates colliding
Love undying

Like the rising tide
Beating hearts grow but never die
To simplify
I’ll stand by your side
Close my eyes
Hope will never die

Go!
And take away the pain of being me
Soothe my soul caress my heart and
End my fear all my bad memories
Eradicated
Ring!
Like gunshots heard against a silent night
My love is louder then these words
They’re stronger then the rest, unstoppable

I'll stand by your side

long day

2009-06-18T00:04:00.000+08:00

so today.. went with faizah to play guitar and watch movie and "walk around." hahaha. shall just post pics

hahah. taken on the way to esplanade

dont let him in!! its just a picture on the wall xD

muahaha i am strong xD jkjk. why is there light near where our hands clash o.o?

lol. xD

helipcopter! u noe what. we were on the roof terrace of the esplanade playing guitar and lepaking when suddenly this damn helicopter came along and then go close to the water, the wind was so powerful that water droplets flew all the way onto us -.- haha. oh and there was a small little rainbow amongst the droplets =)

another smaller one

haha. prob rehearsal for my bi NDP

lol. random pic. see the train so crowded. haha.

k.. thats all the pics..

dont know..

have a sudden motivation to start chionging for dnt

will i make it? i will. haha.

and then she asks me, do you feel alright?

and i said yes, i feel wonderful tonight

2009-06-17T02:55:00.001+08:00

so yeah. meanwhile just prepare for other subjects lor. and you noe wad? olevels ARE DAMN BORING. IF U THINK STUDYING IS BORING, WAIT TILL U SIT FOR THE PAPER. tell u sia. its damn boring =.= i was like sitting there.. put my pen down, yawn, look around and then look at clock, then daydream about something.. and i can still finish my paper.. even slept for awhile for paper 2 xDDDD

hahah this proves that im really... abit the screw loose up there. xD
and yeah. for staying up at this time, coming online after playing mario galaxy on my wii, just to blog. about what, also dont know.maybe its cos of the way i feel about some....... stuff now. lol. no comments. maybe i should go to sleep alr. haha. but im not that sleepy yet =\

guess i shall end here? since nothing else to post about also. tmr going out with faizah to play guitar! ahaha. long time since ive played guitar. well, shall enjoy myself for one more day before dnt and holiday hmwk come back into my life again. truthfully speaking, i dont know wheres my holiday homework. it SHOULD be in my bag xD

k lah. byebye
nights.
4months 24 days =)

sometimes i think that you've got feelings

sometimes i think that you dont

i really just dont know what to do

why are these things never simple?

lalala~

2009-06-15T21:49:00.000+08:00

lol. weird day today.

but dont really have mood to post about it. maybe some pics later. but dont know why, im feeling DAMN sian now. its like, i dunno. theres a constant "-.-" feeling within me. i wonder why. maybe something's bugging me? yeah probably. but what? what issit that im so bugged about? lol. its not olvls. olvls is sth that im reminded about after i feel sian. followed by dnt ( MEGA SIAN ) and then followed by the fact that i have nothing to do tmr.

hahaha. i must definitely find a job after olvls. otherwise i'll die of boredom. ZZZZZZZZZZZ. then another question crops up. what would i work as? help sell books? help sell uniform? hahaha. not permanent career la. just something to pass time and earn money. lol.

once again, the future is so uncertain. so, shall end my post here with some pics.

lol. retarded kenneth when eating ice cream -.-

poor yisong.

lol. exchange specs. but pic blur..

k this one worse -.-

hahaha at the arcade :P

all the pics except the second one were taken by yisong.

thats why the quality like that xDD

jus jk.

bye then

i think that

even if i wanted to, i dont think that i'd get to you

theres nothing i can say to make you feel alive again.

2009-06-14T04:39:00.000+08:00

see how congested s'pore is. marina square is somewhere below where this pic was taken.
suntec on the other side. lol. merlion cant be seen.

once again, im in a holiday mood. but really no school tmr uh. haha
and once again, my mind is dreaming and thinking and hoping for many things. i shall come up with a list.

holidays
outing
shopping xD
movie
going cycling
play basketball
lepak ( isnt there an english word for it? )
working and earning money
going out late xD
playing guitar ( i wan my electric guitar! )
guitar hero xD just for fun.
play xbox
play wii
stayover at chalet
stayover at hotel (-.-?)
get my own laptop
get into poly
get sims 3 ( or maybe sims 4 came out alr by then ) lol.

thats all i can think of for now.
18 things. hahahah xD
but some are more important and desired than the others. lol.
k lah. guess i shall go offline now.
wad a meaningless post this is xD

hours after midnight.

2009-06-13T22:55:00.000+08:00

this is how marina square looks like when its at about 2am.

midnight at macs

wish i could go out at this time more often.

nicer than day time. cos its too hot and crowded.

and also,

its a constant reminder that theres no school the next day xD

i slept for 16 hrs today. cos there was no reason for me to wake up xD

so for once, im considered healthy. muahah

k lah. i shall end here

byebye =)

all that i have to pull me through

are memories of you

happy holidays!

2009-06-12T22:04:00.000+08:00

hahaha. im back after a whole day out! and somehow im feeling energetic. muahahah. gonna watch midnight movie later on sommore xD
anw, just some pics for fun's sake.

lol. no comments

its the yisong boy!

no idea what he doing

ah. im being raped -.-

so fat in this photo xD

camwhore! hahah i look weird la.

eyes half closed. or mayb its a -.- face. and yisong looks weird

pinoy takes up one half of the pic xD

kenneth's idea xD.

zomg

cant believe three sec4 guys spend their time outside school doing.. this. tsk tsk xDDD

yisong's sexy pose xD

the crowd at the IT fair. lolololol.

marina square+flyer

taken while jaywalking halfway. pinoy ran off xD

lol. walking the streets at night.

again.

kenneth =.= xD

camwhore again. kenneths expression xD

i have. nothing to say.

peninsula plaza.

hahah. so yeah. basically did up dnt in school then went to suntec and marina and funan after school. nothing better to do. only me and pinoy cos yisong couldnt follow. so yeah. walked. played. talked. joked. usual stuff la xD

hahaha. oh yeah played the arcade drums and guitar xD me and kenneth make the ultimate band. wahahahah xDDD

other random stuff..

talked about alot of things also.. like, living together with friends next time and getting a laptop in poly to play sims xD hahaha. SO MANY THINGS TO DO! but must wait till olevels over =.= as usual. ahaha. but its okay.

and also.. its like. im quite grateful.. to who/what i dont know. but im just thankful and glad that my life is.. rather joyful and fun xD hahah. i love my life. i think xD

k lah. got to leave house soon. so byebye xP

who cares

playing guitar~

2009-06-10T23:29:00.000+08:00

yeah. long time since ive played for so long.
ive re-ignited my passion. ahahaha.

so without further ado. i shall just keep playing.
keeps me in a good mood
two more days of truncated left!
so happy xD

k suddenly feel sleepy -.- hahaha.
so guess i shall sleep now
so byebye

=\

this song

2009-06-09T20:56:00.001+08:00

lol. heard this song, and i just had to feature it.
its such a classic.

once again.

2009-06-09T20:15:00.000+08:00

i seriously need to go back there yet again.
i lack sleep. im tired. im in the mood where i have a million and one things to rant about in my head. but once again, complaining/ranting is useless and wont change anything. so dont bother. its a never-ending road filled with stress, doubts, and obligations. one hell of a road. lol k lame.

anw
just wanna thank miss seah alot for helping me LOADS in my project. without her, i think my project would not have made any progress at all. sad thing is, shes leaving next week. ah well....

im quite free now.. and i could be doing up my folio now.. but instead, im here. blogging, thinking and being kinda careful with what i say.

actually dunno what to say.
except
that sims 3 is fun :D been playing it on my phone. hahaha.
if only life were that much simpler...
k lah. guess i shall end here.
byes then. should be turning in early tonight.

not like i care.
not anymore, anw.

2009-06-09T00:13:00.001+08:00

yo ppl.
its about 11plus now. kinda tired. but i shall just do up a simple post then

mainly tired cos of dnt.. spent almost the whole day doing dnt. even though i finally managed to make some parts, i was still in a lousy mood at the end of the day, cos i just couldnt get the lathing right. but excuse my lousy skills la. i first time in my whole life touch and operate the lathe machine u noe. pity me uh. lol.

so, kept redoing the same damn part like 1O times and still couldnt get the damn thing right. and im gonna do the same stupid thing again tmr -.- sth to look forward to. wow. and dnt's gonna be a sad, depressing struggle till 1st july. maybe i shud just drop it. saves me the effort and time. muahaha.

lol. random pic. but yeah havent been there for a long time.. apparently its quite a nice place to slack at night. or actually evening can liao. day time too hot xD. haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.

so so so many things that i wanna do after olevels. just thinking about the break after the damn thing makes me feel so..........!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. lol.

actually was kinda having thoughts... imagine how this world would be without school. and every started working at a suitable age and learned only what was necessary. that would be a nice world. haha.

haiii. school's tiring me out. solution? PON. ahahahah yeah. really have the impulse to do that sometimes. but something still pulls my ass back to the damned classroom. haiz. i seriously need to go to the beach again. my mood these days is kinda !@#$%^&*(). tho i laughed like crap when kenneth told me that his mom _____ his ______ _______ xDDDDD

k lah. shall end off here. by posting lyrics! lol.

Inside Out - Yellowcard

Here. A little sympathy for you to waste on me
I know you're faking it but that's okay
And I don't want to drag it out
Don't want to bring you down
I never wanted it to end this way

Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again

Here. A little jealousy
I hope you think of me
Hope you wonder where I sleep at night
Cause I feel like I'm inside out
You got me upside down
Maybe I was holding on too tight

Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again

So don't just say goodbye to me
Just turn your back away and leave
And if you're lucky I will be your last regret, your only friend

The two of us we dream like one
The two of us, the two of us
The two of use take breath like one
The two of us, the two of us
[repeat]

I guess that this is over now
I guess it's called the falling out
But everyday I'm learning how to make it through this life I'm in

Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again

So don't just say goodbye to me
Just turn your back away and leave
And if you're lucky I will be your last regret, your only friend.

I wont say goodbye to you
i'll turn my back away and leave

holiday mood.. again!

2009-06-07T18:37:00.000+08:00

yeah. feels like olevels are already over. ahaha or rather, did it even start? ok maybe it did uh. feels like theres no school tomoro... really feels like a holiday! ~~probably cos i woke at 5pm today xD~~

k lah. shall post some very old pics.

haha. from a long time ago.

from even longer ago...

vote for chiawmin as president of student coucil -.- lol.

lol ms seah's bottle that we were supposed to draw

ahahahaha. no comments.

jellyfish! so cool.

raleigh. lol. i miss pulau ubin

~~my legs so skinny last time~~

hahaha. i definitely need to go to the beach again.. its the place that always makes me have a good mood...

hahah dunno what else to post alr.

so.. bye?

haha. going thru some stuff

seems like life was really much happier when we were younger.

haiiiiiiiiiiiiii........

sew this up with threads of reason and regret

lalala~

2009-06-07T01:29:00.001+08:00

shall just upload some pics here then..

haha.. went to the see saw again.. but it was so darn hot and sunny it burnt our asses xD

wah. fierce siolll

k mayb not.... -,-

ok forget about fierce..

lol. looks like pinoy's immense weight would break it anytime..

random.

grou pic... everyone looks weird.. xD

look at his expression xD playing the toy basketball thingy..

from my house.. lol.

at marina..

the moon.. lol.

nothing much to post about...

went to watch terminator salvation today :D

its dammmmm nice. i wanna watch it again lor. hahah, mayb shud go watch it again with LD. lol. ah f**k. got dnt -.- hahah but nvm. shall find some time sometime. xD.

other than that.. i dont know what to post about. ahaha. got loads of stuff.. but. nevermind =)

one of those things im thinking and looking forward to is life after olevels.. i dont even mind if i fail olevels.. but that doesnt mean i wont work hard. hahah so, no worries. ~~even though i noe i shud xD~~

guess thats all for now.. bye then.

im letting it go

take a break

2009-06-05T22:55:00.000+08:00

its the weekend. so time to sleep and sleep and sleep
start worrying about other stuff only on monday.

nights then.

p.s i post pics of night stars and such cos it fits my mood. lol.

it's okay to be angry and never let go

it only gets harder the more that you know.

yo

2009-06-05T00:54:00.000+08:00

hahah just a quick update then
finished my dnt drawing =) wahaha. can start fabricating tmr alr..
ooh yeah xD

but, the catch is, i only got about 20 or so days, to finish up EVERYTHING including folio, presentation board and artefact. zomg. how am i supposed to do that. sounds like many sleepless nights and sacrificing of my alr shortened june holidays. means i have like no hols at all. how sad. ahaha

ah well. its all for olevels. and my-oh-so important future.
xP

dunno what else to blog about also.. tmr is friday, the last day of the week... and we're gonna get a free period cos we dont have mother tongue anymore... or mayb we might have oral.. hahah. could use the break to take a break anw.. lol. somehow or rather, i feel really inspired to work hard for olevels. aahahhaahah. must be that im too sleepy le. xDD

k lah. nothing else to blog about, i guess.

so, byebye =)

i'll be around

no time!

2009-06-04T18:13:00.002+08:00

hhahah.
short post. theres so many things i wanna do
i wanna blog, i wanna play guitar, i wanna do up my drawing of my idea WHICH I CAN FINALLY FABRICATE ( NAZURAH AND SYAFIQAH SEE THIS? ) XDDD and i wanna eat more chicken rice. hahha but i cant do any of those yet. cos why?

its cos im eating chicken rice xDDDD
ahahah k lame.
shall come back later. byebyebyebye

i dont mind it this way

yet another long day...

2009-06-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

lol ongjin so fierce sia.

lol. some kind of dinosaur exhibit in plaza sing.. quite cool actually..

k sounds so deprived

lol kenneth retarded seh. went out with yisong faizah and kenneth today. haha.

back to normal mode. haha.

lol. electric guitars for sale at $100+

at cash converters. ahaha. but no amp =.= and got strings missing sommore.. lol.

k lah. dont know what else to blog about also... kinda tired.

guess i shall go offline..

byebye

stilll waiting

if you get lonely when no one's around,

just know that i'll catch you

when you're falling down

picture post

2009-06-02T23:34:00.001+08:00

very few words then.

mr roy soh on the dunk thingy on bazaar day..

mr john see toh. sexy pose sia xD

lol. mr koh on the dunk thingy. ms erma's turn. OM ther but he not sporty one luh xP

this was done by hongyou =.=

our little 'chatbox'. hahah. the result of boredom. hongyou is a pig and im the tree. and then the pig eat the tree -.-. see the pig so monstrous. just like the real person. xD

no comments. i dont have a gf. especially not one with that kinda of hair. and hongyou so self obsessed. tsk tsk

somehow hafiz got dragged into this xD

the retard. ahaha unglam photo xDD

lauda sleeping. during ss lecture xDDD got many sexy pose one okay!

k this one not much diff

so smexy xD

pic of the day. and currently my phone wallpaper -.-

so today.. nothing much happened. was rather boring for a day of truncated.

had oral training after school... then did dnt...

k lah today really nothing else to blog about..

so yeah. nights. muahaha.

byebye

unlike any other

grey skies..

2009-06-01T17:47:00.001+08:00

not really lah. hahah

today was the mother tongue olevel paper 1 and 2.. meaning compre, cloze passage and situational and compo. comments?

VERY EASY

hahaha like wow. first time i said that a major exam was easy. and they made olevels sound so scary. but i can only say its easy for this subject lah. still kinda afraid for other subjects, but then less afraid liao lah. and as u all can see on my tagboard, SOME PPL expect me to get A1. hahaha quite impossible. tho the paper was simple, im not too confident of anything.. anyway, still got oral and listening compre.. shudnt be too hard.. id be satisfied with a B3.. or 4. lol.

getting results in about august..

so yeah. meanwhile just prepare for other subjects lor. and you noe wad? olevels ARE DAMN BORING. IF U THINK STUDYING IS BORING, WAIT TILL U SIT FOR THE PAPER. tell u sia. its damn boring =.= i was like sitting there.. put my pen down, yawn, look around and then look at clock, then daydream about something.. and i can still finish my paper.. even slept for awhile for paper 2 xDDDD

so yealuh.. this paper has sortof given me a little drive for olevels. kinda gives me a slight idea of what to expect for olevels. but still long way to go lah -.- hahah. just wish it would be over faster. the idea of poly life seems very enticing. haha. all the things we could do after olevels.. form band ( xD ), go get a job.. go out everyday.. play basketball... and whatnot. OH YEA GOT PROM NIGHT. ahahahah wonder how everyone will look like. sounds fun.

k im day dreamin once again.. k lah. shall go off now. we sec 4s still have two weeks of truncated lessons. while everyone else are having their holidays.

PITY US!!!

lol.

kk byebye

5 months. and 9 days. cant wait.

weirddd

2009-05-31T21:28:00.001+08:00

yeah. the color combination on my blog is.
i didnt think the red playlist.com player would be THIS red.

just so weird lah. hahaha changed skin twice cos of yisong -.- hahaha
my skin was okay.. until yisong said he couldnt see it -.- and indeed, it could only be viewed in firefox
so no choice lor. change again. but lazy to make much of any changes.
so yeah im sticking with this for now

anw, its been such a long time since ive played guitar xD
heres a pic from LONG time ago..

hahaha. and my guitar was new. the label havent even take out sia. and i only knew how to play Apologize and Ode to Joy xD.

oh yea today i was like checking out poly websites... got loads of stuff there.. tells you what courses are available and the minimum points u need in order to go in.. quite informative... then also tells u the programmes and ccas they have..

i wanna join guitar ensemble!! hahaha. seems like only nanyang and republic poly have it.. but since me and yisong have agreed on nanyang,... nanyang it is, then. haha. wad course? i also dont know xD

and omg!
mother tongue olevels is tmr!
hahaha good luck to all! rmb to bring ur ic and dict.
byebye nights =)
sleep early, yeah?

2009-05-31T01:10:00.002+08:00

deleted prev post. heh.

feel like changing blogskin.
but nothing really nice to change to?
hahaha still looking la. byebye

i've got this picture of us in my mind

...

2009-05-30T23:45:00.002+08:00

(10:25 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	lol. stupid gay boy.
(10:25 PM) hongyou:	what larh girl
(10:25 PM) hongyou:	you tink you bitch den cool uh?!
(10:25 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	yeah of cos la -.- k lame
(10:26 PM) hongyou:	i cooler than you okay! I BASTARD LERH
(10:26 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	LOL. so ur admitting that ur a guy ah xDDD
(10:26 PM) hongyou:	you oso admit HAHAHAAAAAAAA

After some talking.................

(11:01 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	tsk tsk
(11:02 PM) hongyou:	what not happy uh
(11:02 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	yeah. buay song how.
(11:03 PM) hongyou:	buay song den fight uh! i fight wid u wan? SHOW DOWN!
(11:03 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	come ah.
(11:03 PM) hongyou:	HAHAHAHA
(11:03 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	hiyah!! punch
(11:03 PM) hongyou:	EH BITCH. U TINK U SCARY UH 'PIAK'! 'KICK'! 'PUNCH'!
(11:03 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	scarier than u. tho ur face like ghosst ouch! basket!
(11:04 PM) hongyou:	"AHHHHYAKKKKK!" 'BASH YOU'! HAHAHA
(11:04 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	take out giant sword
(11:04 PM) hongyou:	YOU TINK U FUNNY UH
(11:04 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	RAWR. slash!!!
(11:04 PM) hongyou:	'TAKES OUT ROCKET LAUNCHER'
(11:04 PM) hongyou:	'PULLS TRIGGER'
(11:04 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	"blood spurts everywhere*
(11:04 PM) hongyou:	OH MAN! NAIJIAO IS DEAD
(11:05 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	slash the rocket into two
(11:05 PM) hongyou:	YOU DIE ALRDY LARH
(11:05 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	whos naijiao? i dont know him. xD. its called anime xD
(11:05 PM) hongyou:	whatever! NAIJIAO = NIGEL
(11:05 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	i dont know naijiao only noe nigel
(11:06 PM) hongyou:	WHATEVER
(11:06 PM) (- Sanzo -) Life:	xD lame siah

i have nothing to say xD
the more i read it, the more retarded it sounds. dont mind the giant sword. i was watching bleach xD

hungry!

2009-05-29T21:56:00.000+08:00

yeah im hungry.
hahaha.
shall eat soon. but first i shall just do a quick update. bazaar was kinda boring. slacking around the whole day. watched ppl get splashed/got splashed/splashed ppl. lol.

then today was meet the parents
all the chers say the same thing
im too slack, im not worried when i fail. too relaxed.. etc etc.
apparently L1r5 for overall is 28. L1B4 was 20

still dont know what to think about my studies. guess i'll really gotta mug and suffer. just to prevent myself from suffering more.

hahah k i shall go eat now.
nights in advance.

one of those days..

2009-05-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

when school is forgotten.

and note that
school = worries = stress = frustration = unhappiness.
we could definitely do without it. but anw back to the post.

went for mother tongue extra lessons
and did some extra paper -.- just to kill time. had nothing better to do anw.
then went to workshop. wendy tan not there... so no choice. had to go home and finish and polish up ideas first lor.

then met yisong and kenneth at videoworld..
then came along ~~two fat girls~~ jasmine and boonyee.
so sit there... eat. slack play.
then yisong and jasmine left...

so me kenneth and boonyee went on our routine "chung cheng area expedition" xD
yeah and walk walk walk. talk talk talk. shall just post pics first bah.

hahaha. pinoy on the three seater see-saw thingy

the three seater see saw. quite nice to jus sit on it and slack really... shall go there for picnic next time xD

Kenneth " looks like a helmet for my ass" xD

blur and not nice group pic. xD i look damn weird. ah well.
then boonyee left for home. me and pinoy went to kallang macs.
and guess wad

WE SAW GOH SIEW YOONG THERE WITH HER FAMILY.
hahaha random or not.

epic PHail attempt to take a pic of her. thinik she saw my camera lor xDD

k lah. guess i shall get started on hmwk o.o
hahaha. i must be crazy.
but yeah.
lifes taking a right turn.
so should i.
cos if i dont follow life?
then follow wad?
hahaha k no link to hmwk =.=

kk byebye

if ever you love me
you'd say
it's okay

basket.

2009-05-26T23:46:00.000+08:00

yeah theres like, amaths assignment and classwork to be done.
and i need to go and get exercise books for geog. ZZZZZZZZZ

hahah feel like taking another day off... hahah cannot la. cos im like, totally fine now xP. hahah actually couldve gone school today lor. but woke up late and was lazy to rush so just went back to slp xDD but was really sick lor.

oh yeah. jus rmbed that we'll be having some kind of olevel briefing tmr.. probably cos of the upcoming mother tongue exam. not so worried about that. after that, its not over. still have two weeks of truncated lessons. SIAN. life as a sec 4 sucks. its like, holidays man. we need a break.
"after midyears, u better change your attitude and work hard.."
"theres no june holidays.. its a marathon. so you must sprint all the way till november"

think so easy ah. whole day tok tok tok nia. !@#$%^&*()

hai. once again, society. no matter what country. its always whats seen as right. and its never the people's emotions that matter.

and once again, ranting's useless here.
i'll be seriously glad when this is over seh. i think i'll organise some 5-day long party or sth. ahahaha.
k lah. shall go off now
hmwk?
dun care la xD

not counted in olevels mah. why bother.
except for dnt la. but who cares xD

kk byebye
nights

dunno leh

lol

2009-05-25T18:52:00.000+08:00

yeah. hahah feeling kinda weird now.
its like, feeling kinda lethargic and body aching now.. lol.
mom says i feel like half-boiled water. hahaha.
body temp of 39.1 degrees
k lah.
too sick now. lol.
so shall go off liao.
cant possibly do any dnt hmwk now.. buahaha.
so shall just slack off the whole day.
thinking of not going school tmr xP
ahaha jk lah. see how
bye.

thinking of something now.. hehe.

Anything But Sure

2009-05-24T20:35:00.000+08:00

random pics while at marina/suntec with mom and grandparents just now. but those ppl in the last pic arent them. hahaha.

dunno why but ive been feeling tired for ytd and today... its like, even when walking... i can just lie on a bench and slp lor =.= hahaha. so wont be blogging much... school starts tmr =.= sian. but it shud be ok i guess? hahaha. but expecting the worse is always better. so at the end of the day u'll think "oh it wasnt so bad after all"

crap. now my mind is on energy saving mode. means like if i think of one thing now, i cant think of the other =.= haha... just damn tired la.......

k lah. shall go off to prevent any loss of energy

and to all the heartbroken out there,

i have nothing to say xDDD just dun emo? not that it really affects me.

k byebye

p.s. just drank some cold drink. seems like sugar DOES work for the brain. feel more awake suddenly. does this mean redbull is full of sugar? hahah. or maybe its just the caffeine.

Random day!

2009-05-21T22:33:00.002+08:00

haha. during english i think?

unglam shot. this was taken b4 photo taking. only me yisong and kenneth there so we slacking around.. my pants look damn fat. yisong like holding cigarette sia xD

lol for the fun shot we took with mrs goh's car -.- hahahaha. if u enlarge think can see nadir in the back seat xD

hahah this was after the shot. mrs hwang was standing on second floor b4 this cos we missed her lesson cos of photo taking xD

nothing really much to blog about.

kenneth's speech on teenage sex today xD

oh yeah calculated that my L1R5 would be 25

and my L1B4 would be 17. ahahaha quite ok u noe. eligible for some poly courses liao xP i also dont expect much from myself. like in prev post, im too relaxed xP. and i got A for mother tongue mock paper when i failed my mye chinese -.- diao. anw shen lao shi also said that the mock paper's standard was closer to olevel
so its okay :D and i got 17 for everything in english -.- ahahahah. except for compo.. got 18. ok la.
im satisfied =)

also got our truncated lessons timetable for june.. so not looking forward to it. zzzz.... then dnt... hahah ok lah. finally started doing dnt again today.. guess things are somewhat going in the right direction.. life's good!

k lah shall end this post here.
an jing le by SHE is such an emo song T.T ahahahah.
can cry siah if u emo and u go listen to it.
kk byebye

seems like there's no more feelings?
no idea.

[extra part]
she wants to touch me WHOA~
she wants to love me WHOA~
she'll never leave me WHOA~ WHOA~ OH OH~

xDD

HAPPY HOLIDAYS

2009-05-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

NOT.

hahaha. im just in a holiday mood now.
its not right, but.. feels good.
yeah weird. tho holidays are far far away and chinese olevels are coming soon, its like,..... feels like a holiday man! ahahahah. i must sound drunk or sth.

hahah just having some weird thots la. like
why am i feeling so relaxed? ~~who cares~~
why am i not worried for olevels? ~~who cares~~
why am i not emoing cos i failed combined humans? ~~who cares~~

is it because i noe i can do it if i want to?
is it because mrs chen told me i could do it if i wanted to this morning?
lol. its just like wad she said. and not just her, but alot of ppl say to me "ur too relaxed. u have no motivation or desire to get distinction.. " "u dont really care if u fail"
HOW TRUE. ahahaha

but really sia. my mind is like on maximum slack mode today or sth. no idea why also. mayb lack sleep? nah cannot be. maybe its always been slack mode. just that its at its peak today. whahaha. am i hiding something that im really affected about? dont think so. is there????................... ok no there isnt. lol. ~~and right now my mind is like thinking of watching movie or going ecp to cycle or going out and slping late. basically all the things u do in a holiday xD~~

k lah. since im in a holiday mood,
i shall spend the night happily while this mood lasts.
not everyday u feel like me u noe.
~i feel good, nanananananana~
~~ok i think i might have accidentally ate sth that has some kinda of drug in it HAHAHAHAHA jus jk~~
kk byebye
nights
sweet dreams to whoever may see this

Please excuse my convictions
If things are different don't be alarmed
And when it gets hard to listen
I'll try and leave out the painful parts

New Song From LP!

2009-05-20T18:32:00.000+08:00

I remembered black skies / the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash / as time began to blur
Like a startling sign / that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason / to fill this hole / connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

There was nothing in sight / but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide / the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in / between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Across this new divide

In every loss / in every lie
In every truth that you'd deny
And each regret / and each goodbye
was a mistake to great to hide
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason / to fill this hole / connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

think its not bad. hahaha but i nvr posted it.. cos it doesnt fit my mood? dunno la. feeling kinda tired now. anw lazy to post results. shall only post after i get them all.

feeling kinda sleepy now -.- but i shall play guitar a little b4 going off. or maybe i shud just sleep
but then sleep then tonight spend my time staying awake -.- hahah

k lah. shall take a nap now.
"nights" xD

and your voice was all i heard
and you were all i wanted

2009-05-18T23:52:00.000+08:00

find this pic very nice.
anw, shall update soon.
after getting results maybe?
im kinda worried -.- hahahaha.

k lah. shall go sleep.
byebye.

cause everytime i look you're never there.
and when i close my eyes you're everywhere

update

2009-05-15T23:12:00.001+08:00

eezeng's attempt. phail. lol.

my attempt. so much better xD

our gang is now officially known as LD
lai dynasty xDDDD got hidden meaning one xDDDDD

And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine

end of exams!

2009-05-15T22:11:00.000+08:00

muahahahahahaha.
no more exams! hahaha. shant blog about exams. hahha.

went out today with kenneth, lauda, gm and ez to bugis, suntec, marina and esplanade.. hahah.
marina and esplanade were only after eezeng and lauda left.. so only me and kenneth
then walk walk. sth really random happened. then talk talk talk. hahah about loads and loads of things la
anw b4 that was bugis street. didnt really buy anything except a gang watch. xD. our gang still no name -.- haha.

k lazy to blog liao. here are the pictures

kenneth when trying out the polo tee..

hahha. ITE boy. but not as bad as lauda. really look like ITE xD later when kenneth upload then i post.

hahhaa. gang watch xD. mines the purple one. lol. the odd one out is eezeng's. lol. cos he nvr buy. lol.

oh i have this pic. xD yisong the ITE boy.

hahaha my doraemon watch xD cute right xDDD

hahaha our group gang photo xD kenneth half face and gm so cute xDDD

k lah. shall update more when i get the remaining pics..

Just Realized..

2009-05-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

Other typical effects of sleep deprivation include:

depression
heart disease
hypertension
irritability
slower reaction times
slurred speech
tremors.

WTH is tremors supposed to be? internal earthquake? or u gain so much weight that u cause earthquakes?? lololol.

k lame.
anw was just looking thru some old posts just now.. haha

lol. 2C class pic. the one where alot of ppl were falling down in the middle area. hahah. and one person disappeared from here after taking the formal pic. and got two loners there xDD

hahah the long scar i had on my face. damn.

anw amaths today was.. no comments. hahah lets just say dnt was WAY better.

hahah. anw havent been studying since ytd xD. today totally no study. not planning to study also. tmr last day liao. only left emaths ( easy la ) and listening compre. dunneed study la. oh yea and sec 4s still got the stupid mock exam next monday which is supposed to be a marking day for us to slack and rest.. hai. lifes sad. NOT.

hahaha. going to shop tmr ( sounds gay somehow -.- ) hahahaha. yeah gonna buy some stuffs and what not. basically, gonna enjoy myself tmr. lol. hope it'll all go well.

listening to fall for you now... so long nvr listen liao. hahaha.

k lah. i dont know what else to blog about liao.

olevel mother tongue coming soon.

hahah.

HAPPY END OF EXAMS IN ADVANCE!

mock exam doesnt count for me. c0s i DONT CARE xDDDD

byebye. im high liao.

i shall either play mario or guitar now xP

byes

I don't have anything to give you, just my hand to hold yours

Wont you give me a chance?

early morning

2009-05-14T05:48:00.000+08:00

first thing i heard on the alarm clock radio was "hi, its 5.24 now, to all listeners out there please remember to brush ur teeth" lol.

anw totally didnt study ytd. so yeah. gonna study later. guess i'll leave home earlier or sth? dunno la. but actually.. study what? ive alr studied amaths last week. -.- feels like theres no need for me to study -.- or rather, i dont really care. hahaha xD whooops. can study for dnt later... haha. dunno uh. didnt feel like studying since a few days ago.. dunno why also. did sth bad happen o.o? i doubt it.

k lah. shall think of what i wanna do in the next half an hour or so at home before i leave.
haha k bye.

cos its you,
more than anybody else......... at least for now.

my day is cheered up because of you =)

i need sleep!

2009-05-12T22:53:00.002+08:00

yeah. feeling damn groggy and tired now. cos my little nap just now was interrupted countless of times by my mom. zzz

heres an article then. since i cant study or do anything productive now cos my mind is just too hazy.

The Effects of Sleep Deprivation

Sleep deprivation can have serious effects on your health in the form of physical and mental impairments. Inadequate rest impairs our ability to think, to handle stress, to maintain a healthy immune system and to moderate our emotions. In fact, sleep is so important to our overall health that total sleep deprivation has been proven to be fatal: lab rats denied the chance to rest die within two to three weeks. Find out more from this Free Guide to sleep disorders.

Without adequate rest, the brain's ability to function quickly deteriorates. The brain works harder to counteract sleep deprivation effects, but operates less effectively: concentration levels drop, and memory becomes impaired.

Similarly, the brain's ability to problem solve is greatly impaired. Decision-making abilities are compromised, and the brain falls into rigid thought patterns that make it difficult to generate new problem-solving ideas. Insufficient rest can also cause people to have hallucinations. Other typical effects of sleep deprivation include:

depression
heart disease
hypertension
irritability
slower reaction times
slurred speech
tremors.

In this section, we will outline and examine the various effects of sleep deprivation. Our articles will describe how prolonged lack of sleep affects both mental and physical health.

Sleep & Aging

The older we get, the more likely it is that we will suffer from some kind of sleep disorder. In fact, over 50 percent of people over 64 years old suffer from some type of sleep disorder. While the hormonal and physical changes that occur as we age will likely affect sleep, especially in menopausal women, the increased presence of other medical conditions and disorders is also a factor that tends to upset the sleep of the elderly.

One of the biggest sleeping problems the elderly experience is the inability to get deep, restorative sleep. Although they tend to sleep just as much as they did when they were younger, the elderly don’t get as quality sleep, meaning that they often suffer from fatigue and daytime drowsiness. The main reason for this is because older people don’t get as much REM sleep, the deepest, most restorative sleep phase. Keep reading to learn more about the relationship between sleep and aging.

Weight Changes

Dramatic weight changes, especially weight gain, are also common effects of sleep deprivation. Because the amount and quality of the sleep we get affects our hormone levels, namely our levels of leptin and ghrelin, many physiological processes that depend on these hormone levels to function properly, including appetite, are affected by our sleep.

While leptin is a hormone that affects our feelings of fullness and satisfaction after a meal, ghrelin is the hormone that stimulates our appetites. When you suffer from sleep deprivation, your body’s levels of leptin fall while ghrelin levels increase. This means that you end up feeling hungrier without really feeling satisfied by what you eat, causing you to eat more and, consequently, gain weight. Keep reading to learn more about how sleep affects your weight.

Resources

Bouchez, Colette. WebMD (2007). The Dream Diet: Losing Weight While You Sleep. Retrieved July 5, 2007 from the WebMD Web site: http://www.webmd.com/solutions/sc/link-sleep-weight-loss/
sleep-to-get-thin.

E Medicine Health (2007). Sleep Disorders and Aging. Retrieved July 5, 2007 from the EMedicine Web site: http://www.emedicinehealth.com/sleep_disorders_and_aging/
article_em.htm.

lol guess that shall be all for now

theres rumours of a possible zombie swine flu.

tho the one that passed on BBC was a hoax, i still think it is possible. damn. thats scary. lolol.

k lah gtg le. shall try and read up abit of chem b4 hitting the sack. byebye

And this is still the only way,
I don't know what else to say

(No) Teardrops on my guitar

2009-05-12T00:00:00.000+08:00

otherwise the strings would rust xD k lame.

yeah its a beautiful song. kenneth just asked me to watch the music video for it. but still, it doesnt apply to me yet so i wont post it as of yet.

nothing much to update about. haha. feeling kinda bored actually.. otherwise i wouldnt bothered to make a second post of the day. lol.

lalala~

k that shows how bored i am. tmr is physics paper! and i havent studied for it yet. ok lah got look thru. shall study sommore when i reach school. and then also.. dont know what else. dnt project still hanging in the air.. just cant wait for friday to come. so that exams would be over. even tho that means that olevels would be closer. and i just rmbed that june will have two weeks of truncated lessons. ZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzz

moms bugging me to sleep. so i shall go soon.... hmm. still thinking if i have anything else to blog about..
guess thats all.
kk bye then

dont know.
there's a sense of attraction
but it's always followed by a sense of... dislike and uncertainty?
ah. who cares.
i can still wait.
for the left one.

oh its midnight now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PINOY!!!

just sent him an sms. hahaha. xD.
hope tmr will be a good day for him. somehow. i dont know how but somehow xD
any wishes?
yeah.
SLIM DOWN. GROW TALL!! GROW HAIR!! XDDD jkjk.
dunno what to say also xP
except happy birthday. lol.
thanks for being a great and funny friend.
lol kk mom's nagging again.
kk end of post liao.

Just Two Nice Songs

2009-05-11T12:22:00.000+08:00

Please excuse my convictions
If things are different don't be alarmed
And when it gets hard to listen
I'll try and leave out the painful parts
You know
I've got to ask you to let go

[Chorus:]
Please, please, please let me out
We're not what it's about
And this is still the only way
That I know how to say
This 'getting out' is not getting out
If everything still comes around
I'll come around
I'll be around

You're not this year's edition
Don't want you thinking I could easily move on
Should you wake up without me
I know I left you but I'm not gone
You know
I've got to ask you to let go
But I know
Some things get better as they go

Please, please, please let me out
We're not what it's about
And this is still the only way
That I know how to say
This 'getting out' is not getting out
If everything still comes around
I'll come around
I'll be around

Please, please, please let me out
We're not what it's about
And this is still the only way
I don't know what else to say
This 'getting out' is not getting out
If everything still comes around
I'll come around
I'll be around

I'll be around

Triple Please by Big If ( Ryan key from yellowcard's the lead singer )

[Verse 1]:
It's been so long
That I haven't seen your face
I'm tryna be strong
But the strength I have is washing away
It won't be long before I get you by my side
And just hold you, tease you, squeeze you
Tell you what's been on my mind

[Chorus]:
I wanna make up right now now now
I wanna make up right now now now
Wish we never broke up right now now now
We need to link up right now now now
I wanna make up right now now now
I wanna make up right now now now
Wish we never broke up right now now now
We need to link up right now now now

[Verse 2]:
Girl I know mistakes were made between us two
And we show our eyes that night even said somethings weren't true
Why'd you go
I haven't seen my girl since then
Why can't it be the way it was
Cause you were my homie, lover, friend

[Chorus]:
I wanna make up right now now now
I wanna make up right now now now
Wish we never broke up right now now now
We need to link up right now now now
I wanna make up right now now now
I wanna make up right now now now
Wish we never broke up right now now now
We need to link up right now now now

[Bridge 1]:
I can't lie
(I miss you much)
Watching everyday that goes by
(I miss you much)
Till i get you back I'm gonna try
(Yes I miss you much)
You are the apple of my eye
(Girl I miss you much)
(I miss you much)
I can't lie
(I miss you much)
Watching everyday that goes by
(I miss you much)
Tell I get you back I'm gonna try
(Yes I miss you much)
You are the apple of my eye
(Girl I miss you much)
(I miss you much)

[Chorus]:
I wanna make up right now now now
I wanna make up right now now now
Wish we never broke up right now now now
We need to link up right now now now
I wanna make up right now now now
I wanna make up right now now now
Wish we never broke up right now now now
We need to link up right now now now

[Bridge 2]:
I want you to fly with me
(want you to fly)
I miss how you lie with me
(miss how you lie)
Just wish you could dine with me
(wish you could dine with me)
One that would grind with me
(one that would grind with me)
I want you to fly with me
(want you to fly)
I miss how you lie with me
(miss how you lie)
Just wish you could dine with me
(wish you could dine)
One that would grind with me
(one that would grind)

[Chorus]:
I wanna make up right now now now
I wanna make up right now now now
Wish we never broke up right now now now
We need to link up right now now now
I wanna make up right now now now
I wanna make up right now now now
Wish we never broke up right now now now
We need to link up right now now now

Right Now by Akon
heard this the other day at parkway while waiting for kenneth lol.

this is what i call unstable fluctuation

Yet another fun day :D

2009-05-09T22:43:00.000+08:00

so today, went skating/cycling at ECP with yisong, kenneth eezeng and guanming
nothing significant to elaborate on. hahaha.
so here are the pics

group pic... yisong was the photographer. loll.

eezeng

Kenneth's caption for this pic "slap him pls. HAHAHA!!"

randoms..

hahaha. i was pulling gm quite alot of times during cycling.. DAMN HEAVY SIA. LOSE WEIGHT CAN. XDDD

whee~

kenneth looks weird here.

eezeng again

~~so hardworking~~

~~so no life~~

no comments xD

kenneth took this pic of gm's ass xD

see how much fun we can get
without school without exams
but these days are limited. after all, midyears arent over
and olevels isnt that far.
but now,
im not feeling afraid of olevels
cos,
im gonna treat it just like any other exam. cos seriously, whats the difference? its supposed to be easier sommore.
mayb just a slight more care? hahaha.

i need more cash!!!
after olevels i need to start work. so can get my electric guitar. xD first priority
oh yea and guitar class no more liao. how sad. haha. but i still continue to play guitar xD

k lah that shall be all then
byebye

i dont know why
but i started thinking of you again.

should i try and get rid of this feeling?

Long Day!

2009-05-09T08:29:00.001+08:00

yeah. first was exams in the morning. emaths so easy and boring.
then went to gm's house to play basketball and billiards.
then went bugis to meet up with kenneth's sis.
gm left to meet his sis at parkway when we only arrived at bugis not long ago.
so me gwen and kenneth went to shop at bugis street
bought and wanted to buy some stuffs.
then walked to suntec to play arcade. haha
yeah. wad a long but very enjoyable day =)
feels like holiday tho exams havent even started xD
but still, im lazy to go and type so here are the pics of the day

lol. no comments

random. we were just bored so we camwhore =.=

glass-less. hahah kenneth looks old here. i look.. no comments xD

shitting xDD

lauda dying. dunno why also xD

when me and kenneth were playing. somehow i won. ahaha cos of my powerful "sniper" xD

lol i aiming then he try to block me using his FAT body xD

gang photo! xD

no comments. xD

lol. whoops xDD kenneth leg so FAT. haha

k lah that shall be all for now.

hai... the joy of not having exams and not thinking about studies.

oh yeah and from kenneth's blog

OH YEAH. my sis told me just now. she read somewhere ah: Each human needs at least 8 hours of sleep. If you sleep just short of one hour, twenty-four hours are needed to replenish that one hour of sleep lost. DAMNN!!

lol. i need about 5 yrs to replenish all that ive lost xD
k lah. bye then.
oh wait. one more pic. from a long time ago.

ignore the retarded face i made xD. the sword cool right. its used to protect lauda xD

or not. hahaha

kk bye

study @ esplanade

2009-05-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

lol. so yeah. went with hongyou today to go study.. lazy to update. just that esplanade library is quite a nice place to study xP.

k i left this post for about half an hour b4 returning 0.0 hahaha

anw first paper tmr is english! shud be fun. or boring =.= hahaha.

k lah bye then

no comments xD

Irony

2009-05-03T00:35:00.000+08:00

lol. the prev post was all about complaining about olevels and about not having the right mindset
BUT GUESS WAD
ive been studying these days. ahahaha. so unbelievable. like, its a damn miracle.
but wads the drive thats pushing me???
.....
.....
.....
actually, i also dont know. but yeah. ive got momentum to study liao.
going to library again tmr to study AGAIN. and to take a break also uh.

k lah. its late liao. shall go off.
byebye.

im still not sure.
i cant seem to make up my mind.
just waiting for time to tell...

mind awake, body tired.

2009-04-30T20:34:00.002+08:00

tired. eyelids heavy. feeling of fatigue. lack of energy. tiredness. finger pain. sprained foot (-.-). unexplainable headache.

next week. myes. no mood. no drive. no effort in study. worry about marks. disappointment. no understanding. fear of failure. fear of disappointing.

haiz. feel very emo now. prob cos of the basketball match which i played like shit and sprained my foot. zzzz. now it hurts esp when i tiptoe. im even half-limping. and probably feeling emo also cos of the fatigue im feeling now. its really so easy to be tired. school's becoming more and more demanding. i dont like any part of this at all. not one bit.

i dont have any form of motivation at all. thinking about olevels just makes it worse. and also thinking about all the ppl i would disappoint if i fail just makes me feel more guilty. zzz. and then it would only lead to self blame and emo-ness. i hate school.

dunno wad to update about today also. nothing much bah. stayed back after extra lessons today for small group coaching. cleared some doubts and stuff. lagging behind in dnt but shud be able to catch up. ~~worse case just fail and use some other subject lor. lol~~ i wont let that happen. but somehow. a voice in my head says that i can only stay in this attitude for awhile. not that long. but at least it lasts for now.

i seriously miss being in sec 3. everything was ok, simple, happy. anything bad happened we would say "aiyah olevels next yr then tok la" but yeah. sec 4 life sucks. and then some ppl can even say that we are living in the best years of our lives. thats just bullshit. it would have been the best. if we werent forced to study this much over the needed amount we need to know. its like wad mrs goh said to kenneth's mom. "subjects like _____ are not meant for ur future use. they are just to instill discipline in you." wtf. want learn discipline got so many other ways. why studying? why the stupid method that causes, sleepless nights, endless worrying, countless doubts and disappointment? in some cases it even ruins ppl's relationships.

i need an escape. or at LEAST a damn break. so im so "thankful and happy" that theres labour day tomoro. going to study with pinoy and eezeng.. and then dunno doing what after that. lol. ah well.

i have totally lost my mood to blog. i'll just keep on ranting endlessly anyway.
im just feeling so vexed and messed up inside now.

bye then

im still confused.
sometimes it feels like i can. but at times it feels like its impossible.
tell me what to do.

all the roads we have to walk are winding

tired everyday

2009-04-29T21:14:00.000+08:00

this is post #600

its really damn easy to be tired these days.
maybe i shud sleep more during lessons.. xDD
k lah
im gonna sleep now. ahahaha anti-climax? lol.

nights, sweet dreams.

life's so unpredictable

2009-04-28T22:17:00.000+08:00

disclaimer : this post is not intended to hurt or offend or insult or side with anyone. anything said is just one person's opinion.

recently, everyone's like spamming/flaming on the sec 3 abigail's blog. lol about what? because of the whole jerome and darius incident. i dun have much to say, except i find the whole spamming thing very retarded.

i mean its like, so what if she said that jerome was completely at fault and flamed him and said his punishment wasnt enough or wadever? its only one person's opinion that doesnt change ANYTHING. does it change wad has happened? no. so wads the whole point of getting so agitated about what one girl has to say? i dont get all of u ppl. so what if she says jerome should be expelled? will it make lee yan kheng change his mind and expel him? no right.

i really just dont know what to say.. its just very... -________________-"
so many ppl getting angry over one person's words. its just =.=

k im done with that. lol.
nothing much to update about today.. haha. guess i shall end here then

oh and for the record,

i dont know abigail by person.

kk byebye

no drive. but got thumbdrive.

2009-04-26T14:02:00.000+08:00

lol k that was lame.
i sat down in front of my com with my chem paper but i havent written anything on it so far except my name -.- hahah. and guess wad. i still have one amaths exam paper to do and dnt too. tell me. sian or sian??

i seriously need a holiday. a real holiday, with no school or extra lessons or no tuition or no holiday hmwk.
haiz. feeling kinda emo now -.- nah not emo. frustrated.

so tired of being in school half of the time...
speaking of which.. i suddenly rmb what kenneth said on friday. "those ppl who go LAN.. its sth for them to look forward to after school" thats true. but it costs money.. and what do i look forward to? prob basketball. and the cost is my energy. i can survive the lessons. but im dead when i reach home. zzzzzzz

i just seriously need a nice long break... zzz

oh and this is random. but suspension seems like a good thing now -.-
expulsion even better. then dunneed to take olevels at all. i wont be feeling all the crap im feeling now. hahahaha.

-,- but thats not possible. cos if that happened, my parents would kill me. and the much desired peace wldnt be there anyway. zzz
k lah shall end here. i still dont feel like doing homework.

bye.

why do we keep this up?
why do we live like us?
i am the one who cant be saved.

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding

its weird

2009-04-25T21:01:00.003+08:00

everytime i say my blog's on hiatus, i get the need to blog again -.- hahaha.

lets start from the very beginning of today then.

woke up at 630 today, when i was actually supposed to meet kenneth at 630 at paya lebar. so i panicked. but turns out he woke up late too. so.. made my way to the seats outside the kfc near school and started doing hmwk.. then pinoy came along after abt 20mins.. then he copied my work xD and then we walked to school.

shall skip the boring amaths lesson part.

so anyway. after the two torturous hours, me kenneth yisong eezeng went to play basketball with alot of ppl.. my shooting was quite good then xD dunno y also lah. after playing four of us ate lunch then took a long bus ride to tampines.. listened to music and chatted on the way..

then went to some salon that kenneth intro-ed us to. its only $3.80 for each person. lol. not bad uh. then went his house to watch MVP qing ren and then played basketball again.. was having a headache so didnt really play much. then went back and watched a little bit of some cute movie called Stardust and went home.

and then on the train i slept and nearly..............! hahaha.

anw.. nowadays its like,

i have become somewhat void of feelings.. like, ive become... oblivious in some sense. i dont get any "feelings" of any sort anymore. good lah. no longer emo. but like very.. dull? hahahah no lah. it feels somewhat empty. hahaha. but i guess its better this way. esp when most of my frens are feeling kinda emo/confused/troubled about stuff. ah well. just wish them all the best

and that i'll always be here for them

and i'll always try my best to help :)

[edit]
and yeah about the blog song.
lets just say i miss those times when good songs like 1973 or even bleeding love were on radio.
nowadays its like all the new songs tend to suck alot. our music industry's dying.
[/edit]

k lah.

im pretty tired. so yeah. i shall end here.

till then,

byebye

p.s. its very easy to get tired as a sec 4 student in SINGAPORE. esp when tk is so boring too.

...

2009-04-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

just realised.

the reason why i dont blog nowadays is cos i keep playing basketball
so i get too tired to think of what to blog xD

until then,

bye

Hiatus

2009-04-24T22:20:00.001+08:00

teehee.

hahaha i dont know why i just typed that.
just felt like it. hahaha. so anyway, today was a tiring day.

k i shall stop here.
cos u know why?

im leaving this blog to rot.
till the time comes when i feel the need to blog again.

heheh.
so i shall say

bye.

Have you ever...

2009-04-20T21:39:00.000+08:00

had something for so long, maybe a few years, or many years, that if one day u were to be without it, you wouldn't be used to it?
i feel that way now xD

but its okay. but feels like sth's missing without it. anyway, guess its back to ____ life. hahaha. now i guess i can concentrate on studies better. tho i wouldnt bother anyway xD. most prob just live life as usual.

.............
.............
.............
.............
.............

ok i dunno wad to blog about le -.- hahaha.
might edit this later.. or not. lol.

somehow, time flies. but the days are getting longer..

damn..

2009-04-19T22:48:00.000+08:00

just rmbed that thers amaths AND emaths hmwk to be done -.-
not that i really care.. but.

anw. tmr no amaths. only got lecture so i still have time.. but emath's tmr and i havent done a single question =.=
most prob gonna stand outside class once again. its gonna be my hangout place for emaths soon. how? if i wake early for school tomoro ( which prob wont happen anw ) i might be able to sit and class and do it. but i doubt i can finish the two whole exam papers by recess -,- but who cares la. stand then stand lo.

yeah i know. ive said this countless of times but i still need to change my ~~phone which sonyericsson still hasnt fixed -.-~~ attitude towards work. hahaha. its like, i treat the weekends like holidays now. homework and everything else all forgotten. lol. but once again, ~~who cares.~~ hahaha. i should stop saying that. but yeah. i havent even packed my bag or anything yet -.- i just cant be bothered la. im too lazy to do anything. ~~who cares~~.

just wish that all this crap can be over and done with easily lah. zzzzz its just not right for me. like those shows when u find a job that ur not happy doing. but those ppl can change jobs -.- i cant change the way my life is now. ~~stupid school and education system~~. whole day make ppl stress and worry nia.. !@#$%&*

im ranting again.. hahah. but anyways
to end off,

♥Faizah says:
cause alot of tk ppl all sign out already
♥Faizah says:
haha
♥Faizah says:
then i see ur like still onlinw
♥Faizah says:
online**
(- Sanzo -) Wish There Was Something Inside Me To Keep You Beside Me ) says:
lolol yeah. all getting ready for school.
♥Faizah says:
haha
♥Faizah says:
kk
(- Sanzo -) Wish There Was Something Inside Me To Keep You Beside Me ) says:
i still havent even prepared my stuff yet.
♥Faizah says:
slacker wad

and from kenneth's blog,

so yeah.. it really set me thinking u know. It's like, i feel like the teachers in his case, really like give up on the students le.. such that they just see the bad side of the ppl there.. and just relentlessly hantam them.. (sounds familiar eh? xD)

this results in.. the student hating life and so on.. being labelled as "problem child", it then would snowball into more problems.. sigh. the society. what has it done? it hates problems, but then not knowing that the society, itself, created the problems in the first place.

WHERE IS THE LOVE? xDDDD

how true. lol. k lah gtg sleep le. otherwise face the consequences of this oh-so-great society.
~we could leave this town and run forever~
wish i could.
nah.
maybe just wish i could stop schooling and survive somehow -.-
haiz.
byebye

what do you do at this very moment when i think of you?

Sometimes...

2009-04-18T01:20:00.005+08:00

All we really need is a nice piano song to calm our thoughts in our minds.

but dont worry. you're always in my mind and heart.

till then,
i'll wait 6 months and 31 days for you.
or perhaps maybe even forever.

Tiring Day!!

2009-04-17T22:32:00.000+08:00

totally shagged!!!

first in the morning was one and a half hour of skating. hahaha. i was quite pleased with myself la. though i didnt manage to do a T-brake in the end, at least i was quite fast? hahaha. dunno la. today is our last skating day seh. gonna miss all the coaches. Di alr gone. loser lah xD. alvin shadow all not there. but guoren and "hum" came today. haha. heres a pic.. didnt take any with guoren cos he was busy or sth..

i look weird. haha
then moving on.. recess played basketball with diana and kosong and pinoy. then halfway tyson joined us. before that me and kosong were getting pawned xDD. then after tyson come we won. but mostly due to tyson's effort la. hahaha. but it wasnt that bad lah. moved on to dnt where i just drew a few stuff for ideas.. lol.

left the coe after watching yisong have consultation with ms seah ( damn amusing one xD ) then we headed for the basketball court once again and played basketball. i thought i played like crap. shoot so many times also miss. only i did was to pass and intercept. zzzz.

so left for the stadium... lazy to tok much about sports day... stupid nazurah showed off ur medal to me -.- hahaha. i didnt run at all.. lazy xDD. so yeah. practically wasted time there.

then after that went to some court near yongxin's house to play basketball. hahahha was much better this time.. scored more and i beat eezeng one on one xD. teehee. and guess wad. im damn tired now xD. my voice damn hoarse also. kept on shouting the whole day.. hahahaha.

so i shall go off now.. haha.
byebye then.

do you know that you're on my mind all the time?
i'll wait. it wont be long now.
i'll hold you close then..
it'll be you and me.
and nothing else.
will you hold me close too?

Just Another Nice Song

2009-04-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
'Cause when I look you're, you're never there
But when I sleep you're, you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Tell me how I got this far
Tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
You might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
There never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
You're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?

Totally Shagged...

2009-04-15T20:57:00.000+08:00

seriously man. its like my mind is still running as per norm, but my body is totally shagged out. i can think, but i cant do anything -.- it takes me so much effort just to stand up. or even to move around on my "office" chair. or even to type. lolzzzz

anw i got loads to say now.. but since im too tired to type, i shall do it in point form
-came late in school
-pe was kinda fun. doing napfa practices
-rained during recess so couldnt play -.-
-lazy liao xPP

k lah shall end here.
think i might be falling asleep anytime soon -.-
so byebye

当你孤单你会想起谁?
我会想起你，你知道吗?
but then again,
nothing ever works out like it should.
it's impossible now.

finally got a reason to look forward to school

2009-04-14T18:07:00.002+08:00

haha yup. its basketball. xDD tho im still not good enough at it yet. but i will practise more xP
playing basketball in school makes me totally forget about lessons, or in fact, anything else. its like an alternative "escape" when i have no guitar xD. but the bad thing is, i always go into tests and lessons drenched with sweat. literally drenched. hahaha. but it makes me wanna sleep when i go home -.-. very bad when i ~~feel like~~ need to do homework. hahah and thats tmr.. gotta do dnt.. zzz.. hmm. maybe i sleep first b4 doing homework..

~~and i seriously need my own house. its like, i just took a 15min-nap and my mom just couldnt let me sleep in peace. wtf.~~ -.-

k lah anw need to go for tuition now. zzzz i seriously regret taking tuition. even if it helped in my marks. it obstructs my plans all the time. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzz.
i need more sleep -.-

k lah shall go off now.
byebye

p.s. somehow i feel very emo when i see ppl say "please dont do this to me. i just want it to go back to the way it was before. it hurts. im sorry" to others. lol. -.-
not directing to anyone in particular...

~~mom just pissed me off again. fucking annoying.~~
~~sony ericsson still hasnt gotten my phone fixed. by friday they dont get it done im just getting myself a new phone. i dont care.~~
~~just so darn pissed now~~ -.-

Today was a rather good day

2009-04-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

hahha k that was retarded.
but yeah.. today wasnt as bad as i thought it would be.. other than being asked to "grow up" and surviving the lessons quite easily. its like im in some sortof dreamy state now.. like. the day sortof passed by without me noticing.. i did notice it but didnt really notice also. k im toking crap. anyway. this post was half made la.

it started in the afternoon and continued only now. guess this'll be another short post.. alr feel like sleeping xDDD but nvm uh.k lah to end off, heres to all the emo ppl around me. these are not songs directed to them, but more of lyrics that fit them.

for the girl who still misses him

Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So, I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do

I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget

for the guy who just cant get over her and cant get through to her.

I wanna know if I could be
Someone to turn to
That could never hurt you
But I know what you think of me
Yea, you had a break-through
And now I'm just bad news for you

I wish I could be somebody else
I wish I could see you in myself
Wish there was something inside me
To keep you beside me and
Say what you really feel
You know I need something that's real
I wish there was something inside me
To keep you beside me

for the guy who's a little afraid to take initiative

We already know how it ends tonight
You run in the dark through a firefight
I would explode just to save your life
I would explode

Let me light up the sky
Light it up for you
Let me tell you why
I would die for you
Let me light up the sky

I just wanna be where you are tonight
I'll run in the dark looking for some light
And how will we know if we just don't try
We won't ever know

and for myself??
...

got nothing la xD.
seriously. thats why got no more blue words. even if have also prolly not related to my love life. k that part was so darn random. it was just to fill up this post xDDDD

k lah byebye.

Tomoro got school!!

2009-04-12T23:06:00.001+08:00

hahah. k that was lame. but otherwise true in describing my feelings towards school. sian uh. now is a time when im very tired and susceptible to emo so lets just try not to think or think as little as possible abt emo stuffs.. listening to yellowcard helps. they help me sing out my emotions, rather than letting me do it myself. lol.

these few days without school and without touching a single bit of homework was... blissful. xDD seriously man. damn carefree. like damn shiok uh. but, all good things come to an end. sadly. so yeah. no choice uh. force myself to get back to reality tomorrow. zzzzzzz. oh wait. one good thing about going back to school is that can play basketball. xD hahaha. k school isnt THAT bad. or maybe it is. ah wadever.

And damn, sony ericsson still hasnt called me to announce that my phone is ok -.- its supposed to be ok last friday. But they called jus to say it wasnt -.- sianned. how long more must they take man. and dunno why ive been feeling kinda happy but tired these days. not like ive been doing anything strenuous or what. lol.

k lahh shall end off here before anything else crops up.
ive gotta work hard for this term... if dont work hard at least dont slack also uh. haha so that i wont disappoint anyone.
and so that some ppl wont nag at me -.- hahahaa.

kk byebye

late night post.

2009-04-12T00:23:00.003+08:00

our dear lauda! xDD
"our gang name is based on the colour of the underwear that he wears that day" quote from kenneth xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
k since im too lazy to think,
this's from kenneth's blog.

so met up with the rest, and then went to macs to eat.. didnt eat coz was still full from breakfast..

so after gorging their faces.. we went to the fourth floor of TM to play arcade -.- ah well. the kids need to destress after school.. xD i played too la. so we played basketball, played air hockey, and some shooting games.

xD yisong. ALPHA 12!!

anw.. after watching yisong launch rockets at some loser computer soldiers, we decided to join his gang coz he's just so scary and fierce.

so YISONG IS OUR LAU DA AT THE MOMENT. PEOPLE WATCH OUT AH. later lau da launch his rockets at u!! HAHAHAHA.

then went to my place, with me and ee zeng flanking our new lau da. xD so nobody was home, and we chillaxed in my room. haha. i just installed rakion that morning, so i let them try it out, while nigel peh played guitar -.- and ee zeng fell asleep while playing pokemon on his phone. HAHAHA. retards.

then later on we went off to the basketball court... played awhile, then got HEAVY RAIN -.-

zzz. had to chiong into the shelter. waste alot of time there sia. and got this crazy guy at the void deck go strip into his shorts and take a bath in the heavy rain -.-

the guy around me age? yea. quite sad. at home no bath. HAHA. so u know what our lau da did? he went up to the guy and pulled his shorts off too. omg.

HAHAHAHA JOKING LAAA!!! HAHAHAHAHA. so slacked there, and did something damn lame. truth or dare -.- but after the first dare by our lau da, it became truth only -.-

then after ages the rain lightened.. but was still raining. we decided to play in the rain HAHA. but then F**K. it was a bloody pool. seriously. flooded. -.-

so being the idiots that we were, we took off our shoes, socks, and played in the rain. HAHAHA LIKE WILD WILD WET SIA. but damn fun. HAHAHA. yisong kept getting pushed into the pools.

then later on the place was dryer, and more ppl came.. we equipped ourselves again.. then ethel came! HAHA.

she came from her tuition in tampines.. and joined us. played a match with some other ppl.. then it started raining again. HAHA but we didnt stop playing. played in the rain again. play full court yo!! xD yong xin was pwned by some small kids XD

so after that tiring match we went to buy drinks, then go home..

hehe. enjoyed myself like crazy. especially playing basketball in a semi pool. hehe.

the fun of not going school.
haha. ah well.
oh yeah theres now a 'feedjit' thingy on my blog. its damn fun la. its like you can see who went into ur blog ( and didnt tag -.- ) and who went to where after leaving it. if they click on a link la. haha. got some limitations. but still very fun lah xDD k very no life. but still.

and this is random but i really like the song Empty Apartments. its like, the song describes the feeling of a breakup and getting out of it. its like, from

"Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life
What's it like there
Is it all what you want it to be
Does it hurt when you think about me and how broken my heart is?"

"It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder
The more that you know
When you get lonely
If no one's around you know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend"

its like, learning to let go and moving on.. quite nice to have all of that in one song that ends with 'its okay'

hahaha k that was just so darn random. yellowcard just rocks.

its just that sometimes.. or most of the time
things that u nvr dream of happening happen
and your life takes a turn. not necessarily a sharp one. but still a turn. a change.
like _______ saying _________ tonight. hahahahahhaa. seriously man. i nvr thot it would happen.

and that shall be all.
stay tuned for the next episode
of the PEH chronicles xDD

k byebye

What have I got to lose?
Say out loud these words I've found
I'll be there when you come down
I'll be waiting for you

Guilty

2009-04-11T16:09:00.003+08:00

originally didnt want to say all this and replace it with sth happy instead but yeah. i gotta get it out of my head.

haiz
i was supposed to accompany a friend to do flag day today.
so was supposed to meet at 7.30
but i freaggin woke up at noon. like wth. haiz. and why is that?
cos i woke up at 5.30, i went back to sleep and overslept. this is not an excuse
i just wanna say im sorry. i really wanna make it up to you. maybe i do sound like _____, but perhaps, all guys sound the same. but you know im not like ____. i really mean it.

right now i feel so guilty.
its like, not the first time i overslept for something important. like wtf man. haizzz.
like wth is wrong with me...
and monday confirm tio screwed.
just because i didnt wake up.

oh and btw, im not all emo cos of this event alone.. it like, triggered me to rmb and think of other stuff..

haizz.. suddenly i rmb wad me and kenneth were toking abt during english. if we were one of the characters in Heroes, who would it be?
and we both chose hiro nakamura (sp?)
firstly, can teleport anywhere. so convenient lah. want go holiday also can go for free.
and secondly, to turn back time and make all the wrongs in the past right.
but then again, a simple change in the past can affect the present. so better not. hahahaha.
~~suddenly i have an impulse to just delete this post and say im okay. which is actually true..~~

k lah dunno wad else to post about.
so byebye.

still waiting,
for the left one.

im so useless
im so lazy.
im such a slacker
im so sloppy
im so darn unwilling to put in effort in things that i know are important.
to everyone i know and i disappoint,
im sorry.

Happy Day today =)

2009-04-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

yeah. k i noe this sounds stupid but,

I LEARNT HOW TO DO A LAY-UP TODAY!! HAHAHAH.

and yeah i thought i played quite ok today. tho i didnt block anyone. but still ok la.

so woke up at 10.30 when was supposed to meet at 11. so got up, washed up and chionged to tm to meet kenneth, yisong and eezeng. yongxin came later. ate at macs then played arcade and then went to pinoys house to go and play basketball. so i just played and played and played, rained halfway, played barefooted, ahhahaha. random la. k lah im lazy to update. very tired.

i wanna play basketball again =DDDD

oh ya yisong is now our "lau da" xDDDDDDD
must protect him at all costs. so that he will pay us portection fees xDDD

see?
so happy without school.
haizzzzzz...........

hahaha k lah bye.

maybe i should stop putting blue words here.. hmm..
but anyway,
suddenly i want, suddenly i don't
but even when i want,
theres not really anyone for me
cos even for you,
its faded.

The Song That Kept Me Company For Many Late Nights

2009-04-09T17:09:00.000+08:00

Lately I've found
You're bringing me down
And I can't stand to see me this way
I'll stick around but I wont make a sound
You already know what I'd say

I'd say you want to hit me where it hurts the most
To get me lyin' down And I'm on to you
Nothing ever works out like it should

Quiet on the front
The sky dropped the sun
It fell down on our faces again
I tried to run
You could see what I'd done
Now it's wearing off, wearing thin

Now where, out there
You be full of you enough to think I'm waiting up
And I'm onto you
And nothing ever works out like it should

Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes

I'm changing trains the station remains
Footsteps in the stairwell echo
I lost track of days
I found thousands of ways
But how to quit you, nobody knows

So leave me, you're free
It's three flights down to happiness
Make sure you close the door
And I'm onto you
Nothing ever works out like it should

Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes

It applied to me for a certain time. haha.
i find the mood of the song very soothing for me..
ah well.
going for guitar lessons soon. so byebye.

dont know,
but dont really care anyway.

Three flights down

2009-04-08T00:01:00.000+08:00

words just cant express how much i love guitar xD

today was just another average day.. other than having two stalkers bugging me all day. hahaha.

tomoro got pe and most prob napfa test.. ah well.

dun feel like sleeping.. like damn sian

but then also dunno wad else to do.. haha mayb i go eat. yeah i shall do that now.

k lah that shall be all for now

my posts getting more and more no life -.-

its been a long time since i went out anywhere..zzz

its midnight but im wide awake.

Its so uncertain

will my efforts be for anything at all?

or will it be just a waste of time?

Slept all day, stayed up all night

2009-04-07T02:28:00.000+08:00

wootz i actually finished my homework

and now im wide awake -.- like wth.

i was so darn sleepy when i just started. hahaha.

been thinking alot when i was doing the work.. not just about the ideas la. but also about other stuffs... u get wad i mean. and any conclusions? none. as always. or its still the same old conclusion :"wait and see how" -.-

kinda boring when u think of stuff all the time and always come to the same conclusion. lol.

~~hahah k wait i go play guitar hero first xDD~~

haha k lah gotta go sleep le. otherwise i die cos tmr cant wake up -.- hahaha

byebye

Answers to questions we'll never find

Do you remember me when you sleep?

Do you miss me?

Am I even taking this seriously at all?

If im not,

should i?

Sleeping All Day Staying Up All Night..

2009-04-06T23:01:00.003+08:00

yupz.
staying up today to do my ideation.. ms tan wants it by tmr.. zzzzzzzzzz im alr feeling sleepy xD
so yeah. this is my post b4 i start on hmwk.
and most prob i'll post again after im finished with it.

[emo]
suddenly im reminded of that particular long bus ride at night last year. i was alone. then i was just listening to music, emoing.. thinking of _______. its like, i cant believe i was actually feeling that way about it last year. id nvr imagine myself at that state. its been so long ago. i dont miss the feeling.
but i miss those days. when life was good. life was easy and relaxed no matter what happened. when life was not this hard. seriously man. the carefree-ness and bliss of it all is so hard to find now.. especially this year..
haizzzzzz.......
[/emo]

k thats over now. hahah.
ah well.
shall blog again later. or not. hahah k bye.

Say Out Loud These Words Ive Found

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tag replies
nazurah: hahaha i wish i could man. if only i could.. but nvm uh. getting it fixed -.-
eunice: yeah ur confessing that u stalked me now. hahaha. school is boring. i wish olevels didnt exist.. ah well. im such bad influence xD and the blue text refers to diff ppl each time..

SOS

2009-04-06T17:39:00.002+08:00

help!
my phone is spoilt YET again =.=
like WTH man. its like the 6th or 7th time its spoilt. i give up on it alr man. sending it for repair prob isnt gonna be of much help either =.=
using my "cute" old phone now.. i need a new one..
anyone whos willing to be so kind as to donate a phone to me? or actually donate mp3/mp4 also can. i dont really mind not having a camera, but the music is very important xD

for donations, pls contact me during office hours or email me for donation form. if u are paying online, please be sure to check that either ur paypal or Edusave account has enough money. xDDD

k that was lame.
haiz. feels so depressed now -.- ahaha.
k lah shall go off now.
feeling quite sleepy =.= as usual. schools really damn boliao la.

oh and its 5.30 now..
kenneth shud be smsing me the results anytime now..

[edit]
oh k yisong and kenneth jus smsed me
they got GOLD
congrats =)
[/edit]

k lah byebye

see what see? i have nice blue words here cannot ah? xDDD

Holly wood died. but im still alive

2009-04-05T22:16:00.001+08:00

this is random
but emo sure is contagious
i was just reading thru some ppl's emo posts
and i had a sudden desire to post an emo post too -.-
when theres absolutely nothing for me to emo abt.... actually have ah. but its not really emo.. but its not affecting me that much anw. hahaha. its just a Waiting Game. that lasts... till olevel ends. so for 'gaming' purposes, refer to the countdown timer ---->
also,

GOOD LUCK FOR ALL TK BAND

MEMBERS TOMORROW!!!

GET GOLD WITH HONOURS MAN.

Let Go Of All You Know
Let Your Fire Away Now

k lah. gotta go sleep now.
prepare for a boring day tmr.
xD
byebye

And Being On This Road Is Anything But Sure

Holly wood died

2009-04-05T16:04:00.003+08:00

A new song i found
its not new.. but i found it uh -.- hahahaha

Accidents,
out on the highway to somewhere,
they tell us about when we're young,
rescuers working to clean up the crashes
before she can see what they've done ,
nobody told her she'd lose in the first round,
The last fight was fixed from the start,
Names on her sidewalks they move through her body,
Like razors they cut through her heart
Like razors they cut through her heart

Hey let go of all you know,
Let your fire away now
What have you got to lose
Say out loud these words I've found
I'll be there when you come down
I'll be waiting for you

Night life, the highlife
she just wants a good life
so someone remembers her too
but somewhere she heard there was someplace to go
when you die when you live like we do
die when you live like we do

Hey let go of all you know,
Let your fire away now
What have you got to lose
Say out loud these words I've found
I'll be there when you come down
I'll be waiting for you

Hey let go of all you know,
Let your fire away now
What have you got to lose
Say out loud these words I've found
I'll be there when you come down
I'll be waiting for you

(Accidents out on the highway to somewhere
they tell us about when we're young,
rescuers working to clean up the crashes
before she can see what they've done ,
nobody told her she'd lose in the first round, )

Hey let go of all you know,
Let your fire away now
What have you got to lose
Say out loud these words I've found
I'll be there when you come down
I'll be waiting for you

quite nice uh
did my amaths hmwk today.. ( dun laugh xD )
but left my dnt ideation format paper in school so im just going to take the day off and do it tmr =)
so yeah.. slacking now... listening to holly wood died.

tmr got school! dunno wad to say abt it. hahaha.

k lah that shall be all for now... im losing my mood to blog alr xD
byebye

What have you got to lose?

Sick =(

2009-04-04T16:34:00.000+08:00

yeah. down with flu/slight fever/sore throat. or actually no more sore throat. kk wadevr.
dun worry. im still alive

just a quick update then

woke up this morning feeling groggy. struggled to go for amaths anw. which i actually found quite useful.
then came back home. slept all the way till abt 3. haha

im still too tired to think of a post
so that shall be all for now..

You and Me and
Not Much Time..

To certain friend of mine..

2009-04-03T14:16:00.000+08:00

dunno whether you are still my friend
but anyway here goes:

Dear ______,

I really have no idea why ur like this these days. Uve now become someone who i dislike. Uve totally changed.
In the past, you used to be nice and friendly, even tho you were irritating at times. you used to know ur limits. but now, ur a completely different person

we used to gossip and talk about those ppl who were stuck-up and had bad attitude. We used to talk and make fun abt how they would always 'act' to be ppl who are not themselves. well, now you're just one of them. i have no idea why u changed. now, ur not willing to admit ur mistakes. u think ur always right. even today, when you made _______ angry, u dont even realise that u were partially to blame. even if you knew you were in the wrong, did you apologize? nope. u look down on other ppl when ur not that great urself. theres this great sense of arrogance within you now. youve become a
"i-dont-know-wad-to-say-about-you-and-i-just-give-up-on-u-cos-ur-hopeless-now"
kind of person and i dont know how you became like this. its just so..
disappointing..

even _______ thinks that you've changed too. not for the better, but for the worse. youve changed into someone we'd prefer to avoid than to talk to.
and you probably nvr realised it. cos me and _____ are just being nice. we dont "hurt" ppl unless we really cant bear the "irritation" anymore.

its really very disappointing. to see someone who was better become someone whom i dislike now. i dont like losing frens. they're more important than ur bf/gf.
but ur no longer my fren. bcos uve changed

i hope you realise ur mistake. when you read this, you prob wont realise its for you anw.
if you change back.. thats good.
if you dont... then.. thanks for the memories.

lol k im done with that.
having a sorethroat now cos i laughed too much during DnT xDDD
k lah thats all for now..
so many more things that i would like to say.
but then, not everything can be posted on a blog. after all, its public u noe.

they say that blogs are for you to vent out ur emotions..
id have to say its only half effective in describing everything that im going through now.

sew this up with threads of reason and regret.
im recalling memories of you and the things we used to do
I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget

for the friend.
and for another friend,

im not sure if i want this.
it seems so unsure.
will you be the one who gets me through the ending?

Welcome to my world

2009-04-02T17:55:00.000+08:00

haha random.
another random thought

one day got 24 hours right
lets observe the average life of a sec 4
so.. if lets say school starts at 7.20
and EVERY student has lessons till 4... or sometimes 4.30
just to be optimistic, lets say the teacher miraculously ended on time and
the students off at 4.

thats alr 9hrs of the day gone.
most students take at LEAST one hour to reach home. which will be 5pm.
on reaching home, the basic neccessities of a human are to eat dinner and bathe..
make it 1 hr. it will be 6pm by the time the student finishes dinner and bathing.

so.. on to homework. they get loads everday.
so it definitely takes more than one hour to finish homework
lets make it 2hrs. so by the time its done it will be 8pm. damn.

so, he/she gets ready for the next day and goes to sleep at approx........... 9pm?
the average student wakes up at 5 to eat breakfast and get ready
so
the number of hours he gets to sleep is 8. which is the so called healthy sleep level

BUT
there are many things i havent counted
wad about stuff like
1)CCA
2)Occasional traffic jam
3)The teacher release late ( happens very often )
4)Recreational Time eg TV/Computer and all that
5) many more..
but with these four factors alone,
it can be easily predicted that the average sec 4 student gets much less than 8 hrs sleep

so,
issit right to say that
all Secondary 4 students are unhealthy?

ps. other schools have to stay back way after 4.
& cca can delay till 6plus or much much later.

hahaha k enough of that
but yealuh. its sortof true.

going for guitar lessons soon

guitar's still the only thing that keeps my mind completely off other stuff
even when playing guitar hero on my phone during mother tongue
it was like, i was in a world of my own. hahaha. everything else was forgotten
guess its better to forget bad stuff. so can be happier. haha

kk to end off,
here are a few picture dedications

this ones for all those ppl who play Guitar Hero

this one is for all the lovers out there.

~~i used to be one of them xD~~

and this one
is for MDM HALILAH

hahah im in a rather good mood.
kk byebye =)

gotta pick myself up for this

and damn, you're playing it hard
but its okay.
i'll play hard too

Long time no post

2009-04-01T18:02:00.001+08:00

here i go,
scream my lungs out.
so dishonestly, leave a note
maybe you can see right through me
but i just wanna tell you so you know

I've thrown my words all around
and yet i cant give you a reason
I ran my life in the ground
and i cant get up when your gone.
i feel so broken up
and i feel like giving up when you're not here.

Sometimes i wish there was something i could do about it.
i dont wanna be somebody else,
because i see you in myself
but i really wish there was something inside me to keep you beside me

say what you really feel
Cause' i need something thats real
im not sure if this is real
but i need someone to take my body and set my heart free
and say you'll get me through the ending
is it you?

hahahah so random.
anw havent been blogging much cos i found out that theres a stalker on my blog. someone call police pls. xD
jkjk.

shall update.. or not.

i go again...
for you?

Electric Guitar!!!

2009-03-29T21:41:00.000+08:00

hahahah not mine uh. it belongs to diana's bro. dunno his name. he damn pro can.

so today, i went to this fat person's ( see below ) house xD

haha yeah. then played electric guitar!!! =P

i noe this sounds very no life but yealuh its wad i did today. but i had fun uh

played and sang loads of songs uh. basically almost EVERYTHING i knew. hahaha

best songs today were Ocean's avenue, thunder, hero/heroine, Only One, Wake Me Up When September Ends and forgot wad else alr la. diana so excited to learn When You Say Nothing At All. hahahaha but long way to go lah xDDD. anw taught diana how to play Always Be My Baby. not bad. shes a fast learner

~~oh and we played slimezone today. then she get so easily excited over it. but that reminds me that shes a girl after all xD~~

i still owe her Light Up The Sky. lol. next time uh.

kk shall end with 3 more pics.

view from her house. not bad uh.

k lah thats all for today.

i enjoyed myself.

school tmr -.- nooooooooooooooooooooooo. sianned.

i dun wanna go school. hahaha.

im in a sleepy mood now.

but i wont sleep yet.

so byebye

~Sleeping all day staying up all night~

earth hour

2009-03-28T22:54:00.000+08:00

lol. i was outside can. at marina the place outside macs was damn dark. here are some really random pics..

sry if some are quite dark. i nvr bother editing

hahaha thats all for today then.

Give me a whisper

and give me a sigh

emotional post?

2009-03-28T14:42:00.000+08:00

heyho
i just woke up not long ago xDDD

but yeah.. i wanna blog using two verses of the song on my blog now.. Miles Apart

If I could I would do all of this again
Travel back in time with you to where this all began
We could hide inside ourselves and leave the world behind
And make believe there's something left to find

Now we've all grown up, gone on and moved away
Nothing I can do about it, nothing I can say
To bring us back to where we were when life was not this hard (life was not this hard)
Looking back it all just seems so far, so far away

yup. so go figure wad it means
but well,
im moving on
i jus hope it wont affect me anymore..

well, life goes on. and so does school -.- hahaha. sian. i was like thinking, june is already our first paper. like damn. thats not that far. but not that near also xD

k lah. dunno wad else to blog abt alr la.
so its byebye

Looking back,
it all just seems so far,
so far away

I never thought that..

2009-03-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

Never thought that this song would mean so much to me...

I wanna love, I wanna leave
I want you to love me
I want you to leave me
I wanna stand where I can see
I'm watching you love me
I'm watching you leavin' me now

I wish I could be somebody else
I wish I could see you in myself
Wish there was something inside me
To keep you beside me and
Say what you really feel
You know I need something that's real
I wish there was something inside me
To keep you beside me

I wanna know if I could be
Someone to turn to
That could never hurt you
But I know what you think of me
Yea, you had a break-through
And now I'm just bad news for you

I wish I could be somebody else
I wish I could see you in myself
Wish there was something inside me
To keep you beside me and
Say what you really feel
You know I need something that's real
I wish there was something inside me
To keep you beside me

I should've told you everything
I never gave you anything
I should've told you everything
If I could give you anything
You know I'd tell you everything

I wish I could be somebody else
I wish I could see you in myself
Wish there was something inside me
To keep you beside me and
Say what you really feel
You know I need something that's real
I wish there was something inside me
To keep you beside me

I should've told you everything (3x)

sorta fits me now...

haiz. moms being annoying again -.-
really dunno wad to do now la.
she so darn frigging noisy can.

ah well.. lifes been normal.
nth too exciting

just wish there was something inside me
to keep you beside me