Thursday, April 30, 2009
tired. eyelids heavy. feeling of fatigue. lack of energy. tiredness. finger pain. sprained foot (-.-). unexplainable headache.
next week. myes. no mood. no drive. no effort in study. worry about marks. disappointment. no understanding. fear of failure. fear of disappointing.
haiz. feel very emo now. prob cos of the basketball match which i played like shit and sprained my foot. zzzz. now it hurts esp when i tiptoe. im even half-limping. and probably feeling emo also cos of the fatigue im feeling now. its really so easy to be tired. school's becoming more and more demanding. i dont like any part of this at all. not one bit.
i dont have any form of motivation at all. thinking about olevels just makes it worse. and also thinking about all the ppl i would disappoint if i fail just makes me feel more guilty. zzz. and then it would only lead to self blame and emo-ness. i hate school.
dunno wad to update about today also. nothing much bah. stayed back after extra lessons today for small group coaching. cleared some doubts and stuff. lagging behind in dnt but shud be able to catch up. worse case just fail and use some other subject lor. lol i wont let that happen. but somehow. a voice in my head says that i can only stay in this attitude for awhile. not that long. but at least it lasts for now.
i seriously miss being in sec 3. everything was ok, simple, happy. anything bad happened we would say "aiyah olevels next yr then tok la" but yeah. sec 4 life sucks. and then some ppl can even say that we are living in the best years of our lives. thats just bullshit. it would have been the best. if we werent forced to study this much over the needed amount we need to know. its like wad mrs goh said to kenneth's mom. "subjects like _____ are not meant for ur future use. they are just to instill discipline in you." wtf. want learn discipline got so many other ways. why studying? why the stupid method that causes, sleepless nights, endless worrying, countless doubts and disappointment? in some cases it even ruins ppl's relationships.
i need an escape. or at LEAST a damn break. so im so "thankful and happy" that theres labour day tomoro. going to study with pinoy and eezeng.. and then dunno doing what after that. lol. ah well.
i have totally lost my mood to blog. i'll just keep on ranting endlessly anyway.
im just feeling so vexed and messed up inside now.
bye then
im still confused.
sometimes it feels like i can. but at times it feels like its impossible.
tell me what to do.
all the roads we have to walk are winding
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
this is post #600
its really damn easy to be tired these days.
maybe i shud sleep more during lessons.. xDD
k lah
im gonna sleep now. ahahaha anti-climax? lol.
nights, sweet dreams.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
disclaimer : this post is not intended to hurt or offend or insult or side with anyone. anything said is just one person's opinion.
recently, everyone's like spamming/flaming on the sec 3 abigail's blog. lol about what? because of the whole jerome and darius incident. i dun have much to say, except i find the whole spamming thing very retarded.
i mean its like, so what if she said that jerome was completely at fault and flamed him and said his punishment wasnt enough or wadever? its only one person's opinion that doesnt change ANYTHING. does it change wad has happened? no. so wads the whole point of getting so agitated about what one girl has to say? i dont get all of u ppl. so what if she says jerome should be expelled? will it make lee yan kheng change his mind and expel him? no right.
i really just dont know what to say.. its just very... -________________-"
so many ppl getting angry over one person's words. its just =.=
k im done with that. lol.
nothing much to update about today.. haha. guess i shall end here then
oh and for the record,
i dont know abigail by person.
kk byebye
Sunday, April 26, 2009
lol k that was lame.
i sat down in front of my com with my chem paper but i havent written anything on it so far except my name -.- hahah. and guess wad. i still have one amaths exam paper to do and dnt too. tell me. sian or sian??
i seriously need a holiday. a real holiday, with no school or extra lessons or no tuition or no holiday hmwk.
haiz. feeling kinda emo now -.- nah not emo. frustrated.
so tired of being in school half of the time...
speaking of which.. i suddenly rmb what kenneth said on friday. "those ppl who go LAN.. its sth for them to look forward to after school" thats true. but it costs money.. and what do i look forward to? prob basketball. and the cost is my energy. i can survive the lessons. but im dead when i reach home. zzzzzzz
i just seriously need a nice long break... zzz
oh and this is random. but suspension seems like a good thing now -.-
expulsion even better. then dunneed to take olevels at all. i wont be feeling all the crap im feeling now. hahahaha.
-,- but thats not possible. cos if that happened, my parents would kill me. and the much desired peace wldnt be there anyway. zzz
k lah shall end here. i still dont feel like doing homework.
bye.
why do we keep this up?
why do we live like us?
i am the one who cant be saved.
And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
Saturday, April 25, 2009
everytime i say my blog's on hiatus, i get the need to blog again -.- hahaha.
lets start from the very beginning of today then.
woke up at 630 today, when i was actually supposed to meet kenneth at 630 at paya lebar. so i panicked. but turns out he woke up late too. so.. made my way to the seats outside the kfc near school and started doing hmwk.. then pinoy came along after abt 20mins.. then he copied my work xD and then we walked to school.
shall skip the boring amaths lesson part.so anyway. after the two torturous hours, me kenneth yisong eezeng went to play basketball with alot of ppl.. my shooting was quite good then xD dunno y also lah. after playing four of us ate lunch then took a long bus ride to tampines.. listened to music and chatted on the way..
then went to some salon that kenneth intro-ed us to. its only $3.80 for each person. lol. not bad uh. then went his house to watch MVP qing ren and then played basketball again.. was having a headache so didnt really play much. then went back and watched a little bit of some cute movie called Stardust and went home.
and then on the train i slept and nearly..............! hahaha.
anw.. nowadays its like,i have become somewhat void of feelings.. like, ive become... oblivious in some sense. i dont get any "feelings" of any sort anymore. good lah. no longer emo. but like very.. dull? hahahah no lah. it feels somewhat empty. hahaha. but i guess its better this way. esp when most of my frens are feeling kinda emo/confused/troubled about stuff. ah well. just wish them all the bestand that i'll always be here for themand i'll always try my best to help :)
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and yeah about the blog song.
lets just say i miss those times when good songs like 1973 or even bleeding love were on radio.
nowadays its like all the new songs tend to suck alot. our music industry's dying.
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k lah.im pretty tired. so yeah. i shall end here.till then, byebye
p.s. its very easy to get tired as a sec 4 student in SINGAPORE. esp when tk is so boring too.
Friday, April 24, 2009
just realised.
the reason why i dont blog nowadays is cos i keep playing basketball
so i get too tired to think of what to blog xD
until then,
bye
teehee.
hahaha i dont know why i just typed that.
just felt like it. hahaha. so anyway, today was a tiring day.
k i shall stop here.
cos u know why?
im leaving this blog to rot.
till the time comes when i feel the need to blog again.
heheh.
so i shall say
bye.
Monday, April 20, 2009
had something for so long, maybe a few years, or many years, that if one day u were to be without it, you wouldn't be used to it?
i feel that way now xD
but its okay. but feels like sth's missing without it. anyway, guess its back to ____ life. hahaha. now i guess i can concentrate on studies better. tho i wouldnt bother anyway xD. most prob just live life as usual.
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ok i dunno wad to blog about le -.- hahaha.
might edit this later.. or not. lol.
somehow, time flies. but the days are getting longer..
Sunday, April 19, 2009
just rmbed that thers amaths AND emaths hmwk to be done -.-
not that i really care.. but.
anw. tmr no amaths. only got lecture so i still have time.. but emath's tmr and i havent done a single question =.=
most prob gonna stand outside class once again. its gonna be my hangout place for emaths soon. how? if i wake early for school tomoro ( which prob wont happen anw ) i might be able to sit and class and do it. but i doubt i can finish the two whole exam papers by recess -,- but who cares la. stand then stand lo.
yeah i know. ive said this countless of times but i still need to change my phone which sonyericsson still hasnt fixed -.- attitude towards work. hahaha. its like, i treat the weekends like holidays now. homework and everything else all forgotten. lol. but once again, who cares. hahaha. i should stop saying that. but yeah. i havent even packed my bag or anything yet -.- i just cant be bothered la. im too lazy to do anything. who cares.
just wish that all this crap can be over and done with easily lah. zzzzz its just not right for me. like those shows when u find a job that ur not happy doing. but those ppl can change jobs -.- i cant change the way my life is now. stupid school and education system. whole day make ppl stress and worry nia.. !@#$%&*
im ranting again.. hahah. but anyways
to end off,
♥Faizah says:
cause alot of tk ppl all sign out already
♥Faizah says:
haha
♥Faizah says:
then i see ur like still onlinw
♥Faizah says:
online**
(- Sanzo -) Wish There Was Something Inside Me To Keep You Beside Me ) says:
lolol yeah. all getting ready for school.
♥Faizah says:
haha
♥Faizah says:
kk
(- Sanzo -) Wish There Was Something Inside Me To Keep You Beside Me ) says:
i still havent even prepared my stuff yet.
♥Faizah says:
slacker wad
and from kenneth's blog,
so yeah.. it really set me thinking u know. It's like, i feel like the teachers in his case, really like give up on the students le.. such that they just see the bad side of the ppl there.. and just relentlessly hantam them.. (sounds familiar eh? xD)
this results in.. the student hating life and so on.. being labelled as "problem child", it then would snowball into more problems.. sigh. the society. what has it done? it hates problems, but then not knowing that the society, itself, created the problems in the first place.
WHERE IS THE LOVE? xDDDD
how true. lol. k lah gtg sleep le. otherwise face the consequences of this oh-so-great society.
~we could leave this town and run forever~
wish i could.
nah.
maybe just wish i could stop schooling and survive somehow -.-
haiz.
byebye
what do you do at this very moment when i think of you?
Saturday, April 18, 2009
All we really need is a nice piano song to calm our thoughts in our minds.
but dont worry. you're always in my mind and heart.
till then,
i'll wait 6 months and 31 days for you.
or perhaps maybe even forever.
Friday, April 17, 2009
totally shagged!!!
first in the morning was one and a half hour of skating. hahaha. i was quite pleased with myself la. though i didnt manage to do a T-brake in the end, at least i was quite fast? hahaha. dunno la. today is our last skating day seh. gonna miss all the coaches. Di alr gone. loser lah xD. alvin shadow all not there. but guoren and "hum" came today. haha. heres a pic.. didnt take any with guoren cos he was busy or sth..
i look weird. haha
then moving on.. recess played basketball with diana and kosong and pinoy. then halfway tyson joined us. before that me and kosong were getting pawned xDD. then after tyson come we won. but mostly due to tyson's effort la. hahaha. but it wasnt that bad lah. moved on to dnt where i just drew a few stuff for ideas.. lol.
left the coe after watching yisong have consultation with ms seah ( damn amusing one xD ) then we headed for the basketball court once again and played basketball. i thought i played like crap. shoot so many times also miss. only i did was to pass and intercept. zzzz.
so left for the stadium... lazy to tok much about sports day... stupid nazurah showed off ur medal to me -.- hahaha. i didnt run at all.. lazy xDD. so yeah. practically wasted time there.
then after that went to some court near yongxin's house to play basketball. hahahha was much better this time.. scored more and i beat eezeng one on one xD. teehee. and guess wad. im damn tired now xD. my voice damn hoarse also. kept on shouting the whole day.. hahahaha.
so i shall go off now.. haha.
byebye then.
do you know that you're on my mind all the time?
i'll wait. it wont be long now.
i'll hold you close then..
it'll be you and me.
and nothing else.
will you hold me close too?
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
'Cause when I look you're, you're never there
But when I sleep you're, you're everywhere
You're everywhere
Tell me how I got this far
Tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
You might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
There never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
You're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?
seriously man. its like my mind is still running as per norm, but my body is totally shagged out. i can think, but i cant do anything -.- it takes me so much effort just to stand up. or even to move around on my "office" chair. or even to type. lolzzzz
anw i got loads to say now.. but since im too tired to type, i shall do it in point form
-came late in school
-pe was kinda fun. doing napfa practices
-rained during recess so couldnt play -.-
-lazy liao xPP
k lah shall end here.
think i might be falling asleep anytime soon -.-
so byebye
当你孤单你会想起谁?
我会想起你，你知道吗?
but then again,
nothing ever works out like it should.
it's impossible now.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
haha yup. its basketball. xDD tho im still not good enough at it yet. but i will practise more xP
playing basketball in school makes me totally forget about lessons, or in fact, anything else. its like an alternative "escape" when i have no guitar xD. but the bad thing is, i always go into tests and lessons drenched with sweat. literally drenched. hahaha. but it makes me wanna sleep when i go home -.-. very bad when i feel like need to do homework. hahah and thats tmr.. gotta do dnt.. zzz.. hmm. maybe i sleep first b4 doing homework..
and i seriously need my own house. its like, i just took a 15min-nap and my mom just couldnt let me sleep in peace. wtf. -.-
k lah anw need to go for tuition now. zzzz i seriously regret taking tuition. even if it helped in my marks. it obstructs my plans all the time. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzz.
i need more sleep -.-
k lah shall go off now.
byebye
p.s. somehow i feel very emo when i see ppl say "please dont do this to me. i just want it to go back to the way it was before. it hurts. im sorry" to others. lol. -.-
not directing to anyone in particular...
mom just pissed me off again. fucking annoying.
sony ericsson still hasnt gotten my phone fixed. by friday they dont get it done im just getting myself a new phone. i dont care.
just so darn pissed now -.-
Monday, April 13, 2009
hahha k that was retarded.
but yeah.. today wasnt as bad as i thought it would be.. other than being asked to "grow up" and surviving the lessons quite easily. its like im in some sortof dreamy state now.. like. the day sortof passed by without me noticing.. i did notice it but didnt really notice also. k im toking crap. anyway. this post was half made la.
it started in the afternoon and continued only now. guess this'll be another short post.. alr feel like sleeping xDDD but nvm uh.k lah to end off, heres to all the emo ppl around me. these are not songs directed to them, but more of lyrics that fit them.
for the girl who still misses him
Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So, I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget
I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget
for the guy who just cant get over her and cant get through to her.
I wanna know if I could be
Someone to turn to
That could never hurt you
But I know what you think of me
Yea, you had a break-through
And now I'm just bad news for you
I wish I could be somebody else
I wish I could see you in myself
Wish there was something inside me
To keep you beside me and
Say what you really feel
You know I need something that's real
I wish there was something inside me
To keep you beside me
for the guy who's a little afraid to take initiative
We already know how it ends tonight
You run in the dark through a firefight
I would explode just to save your life
I would explode
Let me light up the sky
Light it up for you
Let me tell you why
I would die for you
Let me light up the sky
I just wanna be where you are tonight
I'll run in the dark looking for some light
And how will we know if we just don't try
We won't ever know
and for myself??
...
got nothing la xD.
seriously. thats why got no more blue words. even if have also prolly not related to my love life. k that part was so darn random. it was just to fill up this post xDDDD
k lah byebye.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
hahah. k that was lame. but otherwise true in describing my feelings towards school. sian uh. now is a time when im very tired and susceptible to emo so lets just try not to think or think as little as possible abt emo stuffs.. listening to yellowcard helps. they help me sing out my emotions, rather than letting me do it myself. lol.
these few days without school and without touching a single bit of homework was... blissful. xDD seriously man. damn carefree. like damn shiok uh. but, all good things come to an end. sadly. so yeah. no choice uh. force myself to get back to reality tomorrow. zzzzzzz. oh wait. one good thing about going back to school is that can play basketball. xD hahaha. k school isnt THAT bad. or maybe it is. ah wadever.
And damn, sony ericsson still hasnt called me to announce that my phone is ok -.- its supposed to be ok last friday. But they called jus to say it wasnt -.- sianned. how long more must they take man. and dunno why ive been feeling kinda happy but tired these days. not like ive been doing anything strenuous or what. lol.
k lahh shall end off here before anything else crops up.
ive gotta work hard for this term... if dont work hard at least dont slack also uh. haha so that i wont disappoint anyone.
and so that some ppl wont nag at me -.- hahahaa.
kk byebye
our dear lauda! xDD
"our gang name is based on the colour of the underwear that he wears that day" quote from kenneth xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
k since im too lazy to think,
this's from kenneth's blog.
so met up with the rest, and then went to macs to eat.. didnt eat coz was still full from breakfast..
so after gorging their faces.. we went to the fourth floor of TM to play arcade -.- ah well. the kids need to destress after school.. xD i played too la. so we played basketball, played air hockey, and some shooting games.
xD yisong. ALPHA 12!!
anw.. after watching yisong launch rockets at some loser computer soldiers, we decided to join his gang coz he's just so scary and fierce.
so YISONG IS OUR LAU DA AT THE MOMENT. PEOPLE WATCH OUT AH. later lau da launch his rockets at u!! HAHAHAHA.
then went to my place, with me and ee zeng flanking our new lau da. xD so nobody was home, and we chillaxed in my room. haha. i just installed rakion that morning, so i let them try it out, while nigel peh played guitar -.- and ee zeng fell asleep while playing pokemon on his phone. HAHAHA. retards.
then later on we went off to the basketball court... played awhile, then got HEAVY RAIN -.-
zzz. had to chiong into the shelter. waste alot of time there sia. and got this crazy guy at the void deck go strip into his shorts and take a bath in the heavy rain -.-
the guy around me age? yea. quite sad. at home no bath. HAHA. so u know what our lau da did? he went up to the guy and pulled his shorts off too. omg.
HAHAHAHA JOKING LAAA!!! HAHAHAHAHA. so slacked there, and did something damn lame. truth or dare -.- but after the first dare by our lau da, it became truth only -.-
then after ages the rain lightened.. but was still raining. we decided to play in the rain HAHA. but then F**K. it was a bloody pool. seriously. flooded. -.-
so being the idiots that we were, we took off our shoes, socks, and played in the rain. HAHAHA LIKE WILD WILD WET SIA. but damn fun. HAHAHA. yisong kept getting pushed into the pools.
then later on the place was dryer, and more ppl came.. we equipped ourselves again.. then ethel came! HAHA.
she came from her tuition in tampines.. and joined us. played a match with some other ppl.. then it started raining again. HAHA but we didnt stop playing. played in the rain again. play full court yo!! xD yong xin was pwned by some small kids XD
so after that tiring match we went to buy drinks, then go home..
hehe. enjoyed myself like crazy. especially playing basketball in a semi pool. hehe.
the fun of not going school.
haha. ah well.
oh yeah theres now a 'feedjit' thingy on my blog. its damn fun la. its like you can see who went into ur blog ( and didnt tag -.- ) and who went to where after leaving it. if they click on a link la. haha. got some limitations. but still very fun lah xDD k very no life. but still.
and this is random but i really like the song Empty Apartments. its like, the song describes the feeling of a breakup and getting out of it. its like, from
"Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life
What's it like there
Is it all what you want it to be
Does it hurt when you think about me and how broken my heart is?"
to
"It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder
The more that you know
When you get lonely
If no one's around you know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend"
its like, learning to let go and moving on.. quite nice to have all of that in one song that ends with 'its okay'
hahaha k that was just so darn random. yellowcard just rocks.
its just that sometimes.. or most of the time
things that u nvr dream of happening happen
and your life takes a turn. not necessarily a sharp one. but still a turn. a change.
like _______ saying _________ tonight. hahahahahhaa. seriously man. i nvr thot it would happen.
and that shall be all.
stay tuned for the next episode
of the PEH chronicles xDD
k byebye
What have I got to lose?
Say out loud these words I've found
I'll be there when you come down
I'll be waiting for you
Saturday, April 11, 2009
originally didnt want to say all this and replace it with sth happy instead but yeah. i gotta get it out of my head.
haiz
i was supposed to accompany a friend to do flag day today.
so was supposed to meet at 7.30
but i freaggin woke up at noon. like wth. haiz. and why is that?
cos i woke up at 5.30, i went back to sleep and overslept. this is not an excuse
i just wanna say im sorry. i really wanna make it up to you. maybe i do sound like _____, but perhaps, all guys sound the same. but you know im not like ____. i really mean it.
right now i feel so guilty.
its like, not the first time i overslept for something important. like wtf man. haizzz.
like wth is wrong with me...
and monday confirm tio screwed.
just because i didnt wake up.
oh and btw, im not all emo cos of this event alone.. it like, triggered me to rmb and think of other stuff..
haizz.. suddenly i rmb wad me and kenneth were toking abt during english. if we were one of the characters in Heroes, who would it be?
and we both chose hiro nakamura (sp?)
firstly, can teleport anywhere. so convenient lah. want go holiday also can go for free.
and secondly, to turn back time and make all the wrongs in the past right.
but then again, a simple change in the past can affect the present. so better not. hahahaha.
suddenly i have an impulse to just delete this post and say im okay. which is actually true..
k lah dunno wad else to post about.
so byebye.
still waiting,
for the left one.
im so useless
im so lazy.
im such a slacker
im so sloppy
im so darn unwilling to put in effort in things that i know are important.
to everyone i know and i disappoint,
im sorry.
Friday, April 10, 2009
yeah. k i noe this sounds stupid but,
I LEARNT HOW TO DO A LAY-UP TODAY!! HAHAHAH.
and yeah i thought i played quite ok today. tho i didnt block anyone. but still ok la.
so woke up at 10.30 when was supposed to meet at 11. so got up, washed up and chionged to tm to meet kenneth, yisong and eezeng. yongxin came later. ate at macs then played arcade and then went to pinoys house to go and play basketball. so i just played and played and played, rained halfway, played barefooted, ahhahaha. random la. k lah im lazy to update. very tired.
i wanna play basketball again =DDDD
oh ya yisong is now our "lau da" xDDDDDDD
must protect him at all costs. so that he will pay us portection fees xDDD
see?
so happy without school.
haizzzzzz...........
hahaha k lah bye.
maybe i should stop putting blue words here.. hmm..
but anyway,
suddenly i want, suddenly i don't
but even when i want,
theres not really anyone for me
cos even for you,
its faded.
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Lately I've found
You're bringing me down
And I can't stand to see me this way
I'll stick around but I wont make a sound
You already know what I'd say
I'd say you want to hit me where it hurts the most
To get me lyin' down And I'm on to you
Nothing ever works out like it should
Quiet on the front
The sky dropped the sun
It fell down on our faces again
I tried to run
You could see what I'd done
Now it's wearing off, wearing thin
Now where, out there
You be full of you enough to think I'm waiting up
And I'm onto you
And nothing ever works out like it should
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
I'm changing trains the station remains
Footsteps in the stairwell echo
I lost track of days
I found thousands of ways
But how to quit you, nobody knows
So leave me, you're free
It's three flights down to happiness
Make sure you close the door
And I'm onto you
Nothing ever works out like it should
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
Light in her eyes
It applied to me for a certain time. haha.
i find the mood of the song very soothing for me..
ah well.
going for guitar lessons soon. so byebye.
dont know,
but dont really care anyway.
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
words just cant express how much i love guitar xD today was just another average day.. other than having two stalkers bugging me all day. hahaha.tomoro got pe and most prob napfa test.. ah well.dun feel like sleeping.. like damn sianbut then also dunno wad else to do.. haha mayb i go eat. yeah i shall do that now.k lah that shall be all for nowmy posts getting more and more no life -.-its been a long time since i went out anywhere..zzzits midnight but im wide awake.
Its so uncertainwill my efforts be for anything at all?or will it be just a waste of time?
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
wootz i actually finished my homework and now im wide awake -.- like wth.i was so darn sleepy when i just started. hahaha.been thinking alot when i was doing the work.. not just about the ideas la. but also about other stuffs... u get wad i mean. and any conclusions? none. as always. or its still the same old conclusion :"wait and see how" -.-kinda boring when u think of stuff all the time and always come to the same conclusion. lol.hahah k wait i go play guitar hero first xDDhaha k lah gotta go sleep le. otherwise i die cos tmr cant wake up -.- hahahabyebyeAnswers to questions we'll never findegDo you remember me when you sleep?Do you miss me?Am I even taking this seriously at all?If im not,should i?
Monday, April 06, 2009
yupz.
staying up today to do my ideation.. ms tan wants it by tmr.. zzzzzzzzzz im alr feeling sleepy xD
so yeah. this is my post b4 i start on hmwk.
and most prob i'll post again after im finished with it.
[emo]
suddenly im reminded of that particular long bus ride at night last year. i was alone. then i was just listening to music, emoing.. thinking of _______. its like, i cant believe i was actually feeling that way about it last year. id nvr imagine myself at that state. its been so long ago. i dont miss the feeling.
but i miss those days. when life was good. life was easy and relaxed no matter what happened. when life was not this hard. seriously man. the carefree-ness and bliss of it all is so hard to find now.. especially this year..
haizzzzzz.......
[/emo]
k thats over now. hahah.
ah well.
shall blog again later. or not. hahah k bye.
Say Out Loud These Words Ive Found
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nazurah: hahaha i wish i could man. if only i could.. but nvm uh. getting it fixed -.-
eunice: yeah ur confessing that u stalked me now. hahaha. school is boring. i wish olevels didnt exist.. ah well. im such bad influence xD and the blue text refers to diff ppl each time..
help!
my phone is spoilt YET again =.=
like WTH man. its like the 6th or 7th time its spoilt. i give up on it alr man. sending it for repair prob isnt gonna be of much help either =.=
using my "cute" old phone now.. i need a new one..
anyone whos willing to be so kind as to donate a phone to me? or actually donate mp3/mp4 also can. i dont really mind not having a camera, but the music is very important xD
for donations, pls contact me during office hours or email me for donation form. if u are paying online, please be sure to check that either ur paypal or Edusave account has enough money. xDDD
k that was lame.
haiz. feels so depressed now -.- ahaha.
k lah shall go off now.
feeling quite sleepy =.= as usual. schools really damn boliao la.
oh and its 5.30 now..
kenneth shud be smsing me the results anytime now..
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oh k yisong and kenneth jus smsed me
they got GOLD
congrats =)
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k lah byebye
see what see? i have nice blue words here cannot ah? xDDD
Sunday, April 05, 2009
this is random
but emo sure is contagious
i was just reading thru some ppl's emo posts
and i had a sudden desire to post an emo post too -.-
when theres absolutely nothing for me to emo abt.... actually have ah. but its not really emo.. but its not affecting me that much anw. hahaha. its just a Waiting Game. that lasts... till olevel ends. so for 'gaming' purposes, refer to the countdown timer ---->
also,
GOOD LUCK FOR ALL TK BAND
MEMBERS TOMORROW!!!
GET GOLD WITH HONOURS MAN.
Let Go Of All You Know
Let Your Fire Away Now
k lah. gotta go sleep now.
prepare for a boring day tmr.
xD
byebye
And Being On This Road Is Anything But Sure
A new song i found
its not new.. but i found it uh -.- hahahaha
Accidents,
out on the highway to somewhere,
they tell us about when we're young,
rescuers working to clean up the crashes
before she can see what they've done ,
nobody told her she'd lose in the first round,
The last fight was fixed from the start,
Names on her sidewalks they move through her body,
Like razors they cut through her heart
Like razors they cut through her heart
Hey let go of all you know,
Let your fire away now
What have you got to lose
Say out loud these words I've found
I'll be there when you come down
I'll be waiting for you
Night life, the highlife
she just wants a good life
so someone remembers her too
but somewhere she heard there was someplace to go
when you die when you live like we do
die when you live like we do
Hey let go of all you know,
Let your fire away now
What have you got to lose
Say out loud these words I've found
I'll be there when you come down
I'll be waiting for you
Hey let go of all you know,
Let your fire away now
What have you got to lose
Say out loud these words I've found
I'll be there when you come down
I'll be waiting for you
(Accidents out on the highway to somewhere
they tell us about when we're young,
rescuers working to clean up the crashes
before she can see what they've done ,
nobody told her she'd lose in the first round, )
Hey let go of all you know,
Let your fire away now
What have you got to lose
Say out loud these words I've found
I'll be there when you come down
I'll be waiting for you
quite nice uh
did my amaths hmwk today.. ( dun laugh xD )
but left my dnt ideation format paper in school so im just going to take the day off and do it tmr =)
so yeah.. slacking now... listening to holly wood died.
tmr got school! dunno wad to say abt it. hahaha.
k lah that shall be all for now... im losing my mood to blog alr xD
byebye
What have you got to lose?
Saturday, April 04, 2009
yeah. down with flu/slight fever/sore throat. or actually no more sore throat. kk wadevr.
dun worry. im still alive
just a quick update then
woke up this morning feeling groggy. struggled to go for amaths anw. which i actually found quite useful.
then came back home. slept all the way till abt 3. haha
im still too tired to think of a post
so that shall be all for now..
You and Me and
Not Much Time..
Friday, April 03, 2009
dunno whether you are still my friend
but anyway here goes:
Dear ______,
I really have no idea why ur like this these days. Uve now become someone who i dislike. Uve totally changed.
In the past, you used to be nice and friendly, even tho you were irritating at times. you used to know ur limits. but now, ur a completely different person
we used to gossip and talk about those ppl who were stuck-up and had bad attitude. We used to talk and make fun abt how they would always 'act' to be ppl who are not themselves. well, now you're just one of them. i have no idea why u changed. now, ur not willing to admit ur mistakes. u think ur always right. even today, when you made _______ angry, u dont even realise that u were partially to blame. even if you knew you were in the wrong, did you apologize? nope. u look down on other ppl when ur not that great urself. theres this great sense of arrogance within you now. youve become a
"i-dont-know-wad-to-say-about-you-and-i-just-give-up-on-u-cos-ur-hopeless-now"
kind of person and i dont know how you became like this. its just so..
disappointing..
even _______ thinks that you've changed too. not for the better, but for the worse. youve changed into someone we'd prefer to avoid than to talk to.
and you probably nvr realised it. cos me and _____ are just being nice. we dont "hurt" ppl unless we really cant bear the "irritation" anymore.
its really very disappointing. to see someone who was better become someone whom i dislike now. i dont like losing frens. they're more important than ur bf/gf.
but ur no longer my fren. bcos uve changed
i hope you realise ur mistake. when you read this, you prob wont realise its for you anw.
if you change back.. thats good.
if you dont... then.. thanks for the memories.
lol k im done with that.
having a sorethroat now cos i laughed too much during DnT xDDD
k lah thats all for now..
so many more things that i would like to say.
but then, not everything can be posted on a blog. after all, its public u noe.
they say that blogs are for you to vent out ur emotions..
id have to say its only half effective in describing everything that im going through now.
sew this up with threads of reason and regret.
im recalling memories of you and the things we used to do
I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget
for the friend.
and for another friend,
im not sure if i want this.
it seems so unsure.
will you be the one who gets me through the ending?
Thursday, April 02, 2009
haha random.
another random thought
one day got 24 hours right
hahaha k enough of that
lets observe the average life of a sec 4
so.. if lets say school starts at 7.20
and EVERY student has lessons till 4... or sometimes 4.30
just to be optimistic, lets say the teacher miraculously ended on time and
the students off at 4.
thats alr 9hrs of the day gone.
most students take at LEAST one hour to reach home. which will be 5pm.
on reaching home, the basic neccessities of a human are to eat dinner and bathe..
make it 1 hr. it will be 6pm by the time the student finishes dinner and bathing.
so.. on to homework. they get loads everday.
so it definitely takes more than one hour to finish homework
lets make it 2hrs. so by the time its done it will be 8pm. damn.
so, he/she gets ready for the next day and goes to sleep at approx........... 9pm?
the average student wakes up at 5 to eat breakfast and get ready
so
the number of hours he gets to sleep is 8. which is the so called healthy sleep level
BUT
there are many things i havent counted
wad about stuff like
1)CCA
2)Occasional traffic jam
3)The teacher release late ( happens very often )
4)Recreational Time eg TV/Computer and all that
5) many more..
but with these four factors alone,
it can be easily predicted that the average sec 4 student gets much less than 8 hrs sleep
so,
issit right to say that
all Secondary 4 students are unhealthy?
ps. other schools have to stay back way after 4.
& cca can delay till 6plus or much much later.
but yealuh. its sortof true.
going for guitar lessons soon
guitar's still the only thing that keeps my mind completely off other stuff
even when playing guitar hero on my phone during mother tongue
it was like, i was in a world of my own. hahaha. everything else was forgotten
guess its better to forget bad stuff. so can be happier. haha
kk to end off,
here are a few picture dedications
this ones for all those ppl who play Guitar Hero
this one is for all the lovers out there. i used to be one of them xD
and this one
is for MDM HALILAH
hahah im in a rather good mood.
kk byebye =)
gotta pick myself up for this
and damn, you're playing it hard
but its okay.
i'll play hard too
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
here i go,
scream my lungs out.
so dishonestly, leave a note
maybe you can see right through me
but i just wanna tell you so you know
I've thrown my words all around
and yet i cant give you a reason
I ran my life in the ground
and i cant get up when your gone.
i feel so broken up
and i feel like giving up when you're not here.
Sometimes i wish there was something i could do about it.
i dont wanna be somebody else,
because i see you in myself
but i really wish there was something inside me to keep you beside me
say what you really feel
Cause' i need something thats real
im not sure if this is real
but i need someone to take my body and set my heart free
and say you'll get me through the ending
is it you?
hahahah so random.
anw havent been blogging much cos i found out that theres a stalker on my blog. someone call police pls. xD
jkjk.
shall update.. or not.
i go again...
for you?
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