~Strumming away my thoughts~

Friday, October 17, 2008

third emo post in a row..
dunno why im feeling like this these days.
i feel like im not myself........
for example
this morning TKH scolded ppl for ponning ytd
instead of being the sadist i supposedly am and laughing at them,
i felt moody and irritated... i have no idea why.

it seems like these days,
it has become so much easier to frown
instead of smile or laugh. i dunno why.

haizzzzz.......
its the first time in my whole life
that im not feeling happy even tho exams are over

last time, even if my marks were lousy, as long as exams were over, i didnt care.
i would be in a holiday mood.... celebrating and enjoying myself.. but now....

guess its really one heck of a mess inside me now. i dont even noe what im feeling at this point of time

i feel that life is meaningless and boring, but im not suicidal
i feel that im tired, but theres no desire to sleep
its like
ur hungry, but theres no desire to eat.

i dunno wad im supposed to do now.......
clean up this mess? how? i dun even noe wad it is.
i cant possibly wait for it to clear itself up.......
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..................

long time since i put a "haiz" in a post.......
ah well.
i dunno.
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Sanzo blogged at 11:03 PM

Strumming away my thoughts...
the rhythm of my heart...