~Strumming away my thoughts~

Thursday, October 16, 2008

i was looking through ppls blog today
and i was like O.O
wth?!
since when was life so complex and sophisticated?
see? even the word sophisticated is so long.
13 letters long to be exact.

anw
i thought life was supposed to be simple
and yeah
life WAS simple
i kinda miss primary school days
where i do nothing but eat, sleep, study( willingly ), play
and didnt had a single worry. lol.
i didnt go out with frens,
i didnt have a handphone
i didnt noe who on earth was benny lava or linkin park
but yet,
i was happy
wad does this show? that humans get greedier as they grow up?
or does it show that humans have more to worry about as they grow up, so they need more things to cheer themselves up at the same time?
i have no idea. i cant do anything abt it anw. im to used to it. both the bad things and the good.

lol. it suddenly rains
fits my mood anw.
...................
ok it stopped.
wth?
........
ok its heavier now.
zzz. for some reason just now, i really wanted to be alone
after i left school
i didnt say hi to anyone at all. i just walked and walked.
i really wanted to be alone.
without anybody. i dont know why. maybe it was cos whenever im unhappy i would go look for my friends
and i thought that if i didnt look for them to tell them, i would not be reminded of the sad stuff and thus, i would be happier.
im so dumb. lol.
i also had a great impulse to delete all the links in this blog.
or actually, to delete this blog. zzz.

...........
.........
aiyah dunno la.
my mood is really really cranky now.
hahahah.
why? im also not sure
the desire to be alone is still here. maybe im just too tired.

hmm. i have a sudden thought
when ____ told me he got over _____
he said hes become more hot tempered and seeing all the bad in ppl around him.
could that be happening to me?
im not seeing bad in ppl
im seeing..... pain? uncertainty? lol.
this proves that the line "when somebody loved me, everything was beautiful" is true.
lol.

sometimes
i just wish that i would get amnesia.
rmb nothing at all. everything's new to me.
that would be nice. all worries, sadness and bad pasts would be forgotten.
if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move that i made, i would
if i could stand up and take the blame i would
i would take all the shame to the grave
on second thought, i would just wanna forget all the sad stuff
and rmb only the happy stuff

ok u noe wad?
i shall end my post here
my mood is really getting very depressed.
hahaha. and no wonder ppl cant help being emo at times.
so yeah. bye.

when somebody loved me
everything was beautiful
every hour we spent together
lives within my heart
so the years went by
i stayed the same
but she began to drift away
i was left alone
but still i waited for the day
when she'd say i will always love you

but now ive changed my mind,
ive decided to be alone.
and so from now on,
im on my own
i didnt want to do this. i thought there was hope. but apparently there isnt. i just want you to be happy. you deserve someone better. much better. im better off on my own.

Sanzo blogged at 3:17 PM

Strumming away my thoughts...
the rhythm of my heart...